~That's just me~

bye

2006-04-12T16:35:00.000+10:00

Abandonment - bye!

As of today, I am officially abandoning my blog. There will be no more updates. After 2 years, I need a new start. Cheers and thanks to all who have been reading. :)

eggs

2006-04-07T13:57:00.000+10:00

A tribute to eggs and some random thoughts

I love eggs (I meant chicken eggs, what were u thinking?!). They are so versatile. You can have them fried, poached, scrambled, hard boiled, soft boiled, raw (I hate that btw) etc. You can eat them with anything. Instant noodles just don’t taste as good without an egg. Of course, too many will kill you. But you can’t live without them. Cheers to chicken eggs! (I am not discriminating against other eggs. Quail eggs and duck eggs are fab too).

It’s the end of week 6 (stop screaming Mich). Yesterday whilst at lecture, 4 people entered the lecture theatre at approximately 5 minute intervals from 11am onwards (my lecture started at 10:30am). The first 2 people wondered in, looked at us strangely and proceeded to walk out. The 3rd person came in and stared at the lecturer until she said, “Hulo. Are you here for legal issues in medicine?” And she sheepishly said, “No” and walked out. The 4th person came in, sat down, took notes for 5 whole minutes before realizing that he was in the wrong lecture and then proceeded to sheepishly make a quick exit amidst the sniggers from the crowd. It’s the end of week 6. How could you still NOT know where your lectures are? You should have already gone (hopefully) for 6 lectures at the same place and time every week. I just don’t get it.

Optus gave me a phone (Motorola razor) for being a loyal customer. It’s sleek and thin but no idea how to use it. Once you use a Nokia, you never go back. Besides, I love my current phone too much.

How often do we practise what we preach? We tell people what to do when something goes wrong. We give advice. We comfort others. Would we actually do what we tell people to do if the situation reversed? I think not.

I have great respect for housewives, cleaners, maids and anybody who cleans the house. I made up my mind to do spring cleaning during the Easter break. I decided yesterday that I couldn’t take my room being filthy anymore so I cleaned it. REALLY cleaned it. From top to bottom. Spent 2 whole hours cleaning. Vacuuming, scrubbing, wiping, washing etc. First time I ever cleaned my room so thoroughly. I AM DAMN TIRED. I can’t even imagine doing this every day. It feels good though. Very therapeutic. I watched “How clean is your house?” (for those who don’t, it’s this reality show about 2 British women going to clean up the really dirty houses of some American families) and got REALLY disgusted at how people could stand living such FILTH. It was like living in a dumpster. No kidding. You won’t even believe how filthy those houses were. There were insects and rats and food all over and clothes on the floor which their pets had already peed on. *shivers* I never want to live like that.

It’s getting cold. Feels a little like winter. Snow fell in autumn! My bed is so comfy nowadays that I have such a hard time getting outta bed to go to uni in the mornings. Speaking of bed, I should go to sleep. Thank God it’s the weekend. Have a good weekend folks!

blogging cuz of michy

2006-04-04T16:45:00.000+10:00

Blogging cuz Michy told me to

I'm currently in the lab waiting for Syl to end class so we can go get dinner. I love the uni computers. They are as fast as the speed of lightning (it's the internet I'm toking 'bout). No one seems to be blogging nowadays. Guess it's cuz exams are coming along. For the Singaporeans of course. The Aussies (I mean the people studying here) are mid-way into the semester (what, so fast?!) so tests are coming up and assignments are due soon *ack* starts pulling hair out.

Life's a mess at the moment.

1. My room is filthy. I have to clean it soon during the Easter break. And I mean CLEAN it out. As in, spotless. Dustless. Probably will be chucking lots of unnecessary clothes and books. I should have a yard sale.

2. It's already mid-sem and I still have no clue about what is going on in Property class. If I don't do something about it soon, I'm going to fail it miserably.

3. I'm sleep deprived. Why? I also don't know.

4. I've got assignments due soon which I haven't even started.

5. I've got tons of reading to do. I should just burn them and drink them.

6. Time is passing too quickly.

7. I pray that my caterer comes back soon so I won't have to eat my terrible cooking a moment longer.

I'm not complaining. Compared to some of my friends, I'm having a whale of a time.

At least Easter's coming soon. I need a break. We all do.

All the best Yuanny, with your exams and your trip :)
All the best Juice, with you exams as well as with the phones thingy :)
Good luck Peg, with your poly application and your work :)
Good luck for exams Ra! :)
Best of luck for your double degree application Grace :)
All the best for your uni application Shanta :)
All the best to your future Xiao Zhi! Stay happy always :)
Dun stress Eunice! All the best! :)
Good luck for your test Mich :)
All the best for your presentation and test Syl :)
I hope you'll be able to get more sleep Amy :)

I love music. It's the best thing ever created. Truly. Cheers to those who make good music (MUSIC Michelle, not NOISE like you :S) People like Wang Li Hong.

quiz

2006-04-01T01:10:00.000+11:00

Bored

I can't believe it's the 1st of April already.

I'm lagging with my readings. There's just too much to do.

I'm stressed and can't sleep.

I'm bored cuz I can't sleep.

When I'm bored, I like to do online quizes. They are funny and interesting.

Your Eyes Should Be Brown

Your eyes reflect: Depth and wisdom
What's hidden behind your eyes: A tender heart

What'>http://www.blogthings.com/whatcolorshouldyoureyesbequiz/">What Color Should Your Eyes Be?

Your True Love Is a Cancer

Why you'll love a Cancer:
Cancer's loyal and sincere heart makes your own sensitive heart melt.Caring and devoted, a Cancer will take the lead in pursuing you - and not give up!
Why a Cancer will love you:
You're laid back enough to deal with Cancer's little mood swings and freak-outs.A fellow homebody, you know how make Cancer comfortable and at home with you.

What'>http://www.blogthings.com/whatsignisyourtruelovequiz/">What Sign Is Your True Love?

You Are Lightning

Beautiful yet dangerousPeople will stop and watch you when you appearEven though you're capable of random violence
You are best known for: your power
Your dominant state: performing

What Type of Weather Are You?

A true original and classic, you represent the best of everything you can offer.Just the right amount of sweet, just the right amount of energy... you're the life of the party.Your best soda match: Mountain DewStay away from:Dr Pepper

Your Birthdate: January 23

You're not good at any one thing, and that's the problem.You're good at so much - you never know what to do.Change is in your blood, and you don't stick to much for long.You are destined for a life of travel and fun.
Your strength: Your likeability
Your weakness: You never feel satisfied
Your power color: Bright yellow
Your power symbol: Asterisk
Your power month: May

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

You Are 20% Boyish and 80% Girlish

Even if you're not a girl, you're very feminine.You're in touch with your feelings, and your heart rules you.A bit of a emotional roller coaster, one moment you're up and the next you're down.But no matter what, you try to be as cute and perky as possible.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

Your Love Life Secrets Are

Looking back on your life, you will only have one true love.
You're a little scarred from your past relationships, but who isn't?
You prefer a quirky, unique person to be your lover. You're easy going about who you're with, as long as they love you back.
In fights, you are able to walk away and calm down. You are able to weather the storm.
Getting over a break-up doesn't take long. Easy come, easy go.

Your Love Life Secrets, Revealed

How You Are In Love

You fall in love quickly and easily. And very often.
In relationships, you tend to be a bit selfish.
You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time.
You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.
You are fickle and tend to fall out of love easily. You bounce from romance to romance.

How Are You In Love?

People Envy Your Compassion

You have a kind heart and an unusual empathy for all living creatures. You tend to absorb others' happiness and pain.People envy your compassion, and more importantly, the connections it helps you build. And compassionate as you are, you feel for them.

What Do People Envy About You?

You Are a Frappacino

At your best, you are: fun loving, sweet, and modern
At your worst, you are: childish and over indulgent
You drink coffee when: you're craving something sweet
Your caffeine addiction level: low

What Kind of Coffee Are You?

Your Scholastic Strength Is Inspiring Others

You are great at developing a vision, and getting others to adopt your way of thinking.You are talented at leading, balancing tasks, and helping people work together.
You should major in:
CounselingEnvironmental studiesLawSocial workPolitical scienceNursing

What Should You Major In?

guys are freaking jerks

2006-03-31T16:26:00.000+11:00

Almost every single guy I've met is either freaking weird or is a freaking jerk. Why can't I just meet a NORMAL guy for a refreshing change? Or maybe it's just me. Just damn irritated with all of them. You just can't understand what the hell is going through that puny brain of theirs. People ask how come all my friends are girls. There you have it. I need a gay guy for a friend. I heard they make great friends. Maybe I should turn gay as well.

TGWO

2006-03-29T16:39:00.000+11:00

TGWO (Thank God Wednesday's Over)

*phew* Sat thru 5 hrs of lectures today. Drove me insane. Time was crawling by like a snail. My butt hurts from sitting down. *ack* Property law is a pain in the ass. Literally. Can't understand the freaking subject and who cares what the history of property law is and what not. It makes Contract law look easy peasy. Damnit. No wonder they have a high failure rate.

One more day tomorrow and the weekend's here! Whee! I have many things to do during the weekend. BAH. I lurve weekends.

What the heck...I just went back and read my March 2004 archives and they are so CRAP! I can't believe I wrote those stuff!!! Which reminds me that I went back home and read my old diaries and was so disgusted by them that I just tore them up, soaked them in water and threw them in the trash. It all seems so childish and embarrassing now. What the heeelll... :S

Laterz peeps!

I trust you

2006-03-28T14:23:00.000+11:00

I trust U

Was having a late night chat with Juice last night (or should I say this morning). I was up late because I just got my laptop back and was busy downloading all the stuff into it. A brand new start. Wow. All this while I was hoping for a new start to life. Until I realised (after my computer went bust), how much I wanted to hold on to the old stuff. It was hard letting it go, but not impossible. And ever since I came here (to Melb), I have since learnt to let things go. It has been a traumatic experience for me (life lessons repeated over and over again) but with each bad experience I learn something new. I also learn slowly, to let go of things.

I remember someone once said that to learn how to let go is the hardest, yet most important thing in life. I think God is teaching me that. I had a conversation (one-sided, as usual) with Him one day and He knows that my main weakness (amongst many others) is that there are some things in life which I have a very hard time forgetting and letting go. There are people in life (like my family of course) that I wish and hope and pray that I will never have to part with. But nothing is forever, except God.

But I guess when you let go, you learn to live, to look forward, stop harping on the past and become at peace with yourself. That's how I feel now. At peace with myself. And learning how to trust God to take care of me is the main reason for this peace. Because no matter what happens you know that He will take care of you. After some of the shit I've had to go through recently, there is very little that's going to bring me down now (I hope *lol*). It makes you a stronger person. By letting go, you learn to forgive others, but most importantly, you learn to forgive YOURSELF. That's the hardest bit.

Amy always tells me not to be so hard on myself. Recently I feel I have to say the same about her as well.

Anyway, I was chatting to Juice and she always has this knack of explaining things in the simplest ways which make the most sense. It's very comforting to talk to her because she always knows what to say. It may not be the "right" thing to say, but she knows the appropriate things to say, and she won't lie to you. Like maybe I fell out with a friend and the "right" thing to say would be "oh don't worry, the other friend is so mean blahblah it's not your fault...". But the appropriate thing to say may be "I think you should talk to her about it. You were not exactly blameless as well." I appreciate the honesty. I think being able to talk to people is a gift. Juice you should be a counsellor! Thanks for the talk last night!

On a lighter note, I got my placement! They offered me a placement next semester for 5 weeks for my Family law unit. I'm supposed to go to this law firm (on-campus) every Friday morning (for a mth) for 4 hours and basically do an internship. Then the 5th week I get to go to the Dandenong Family Court. So exciting! And it's all part of my course! Of couse last time I would have just taken the easy way out and opted to do the 100% exam paper. But not anymore.

I AM turning into a new leaf. *grins* :)

WTF

2006-03-26T14:16:00.000+11:00

WTF

My computer crashed. Hard disk crashed. Everything's gone. My songs are all gone! Lucky I haven't done any assignments yet or have anything really impt in there that I need. Hiahz. So unlucky. It must happen to me now. Timing is damn good. Computers give me so much trouble. On the other hand, I can't live without them. Happened for no blinking reason summore. I finally got my internet up and now I dun have a com to go on. So smart. Have to get my hard disk replaced and do everything again from scratch. Aihz. When I asked for a chance to do everything over again I didn't mean starting my computer from scratch. Bugger.

songs

2006-03-22T23:00:00.000+11:00

Songs

Tonight I went and grabbed some songs from Michy cuz I got bored listening to mine. Found some meaningful lyrics.

"Together We Are One" (Delta Goodrem) Melbourne 2006 Commonwealth Games

Here we are sharing our lives
We made it through the good and bad times
And still we stand with hope in our hearts
No matter what we will play our part
And now we've come so far
One chance to touch a star
Go higher ... and higher
Find your guiding inspiration
In a place where dreams are made
With a lifetime's preparation
It's no time to be afraid
Put our difference behind us
While you shine like a sun
See what we've all become
Together we are one

Inside your heart and soul
You work so hard to reach your goal
And here we stand with every breath
You gave it all till there was nothing left
Seek out the strength to win
No thoughts of giving in
Go higher...and higher
Find your guiding inspiration
In a place where dreams are made
With a lifetime's preparation
It's no time to be afraid
Put our differences behind us
While we're shining like a sun
See what we've all become
Together we are one

"If Everyone Cared" (Nickleback)

From underneath the trees, we watch the sky
Confusing stars for satellites
I never dreamed that you'd be mine
But here we are, we're here tonight
Singing Amen, I, I'm alive
Singing Amen, I, I'm alive
If everyone cared and nobody cried
If everyone loved and nobody lied
If everyone shared and swallowed their pride
Then we'd see the day when nobody died
And I'm singing
Amen I, Amen I, I'm alive
Amen I, Amen I, Amen I, I'm alive
And in the air the fireflies
Our only light in paradise
We'll show the world they were wrong
And teach them all to sing along
Singing Amen, I, I'm alive
Singing Amen, I, I'm alive
And as we lie beneath the stars
We realize how small we are
If they could love like you and me
Imagine what the world could be
If everyone cared and nobody cried
If everyone loved and nobody lied
If everyone shared and swallowed their pride
Then we'd see the day when nobody died
When nobody died...

"Jesus take the wheel" (Carrie Underwood)

She was driving last Friday on her way to Cincinnati
On a snow white Christmas Eve
Going home to see her Mama and her Daddy with the baby in the backseat
Fifty miles to go and she was running low on faith and gasoline
It been a long hard year
She had a lot on her mind and she didn't pay attention
She was going way to fast
Before she knew it she was spinning on a thin black sheet of glass
She saw both their lives flash before her eyes
She didn't even have time to cry
She was sooo scared
She threw her hands up in the air

Jesus take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this all on my own
I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
To save me from this road I'm on
Jesus take the wheel

It was still getting colder when she made it to the shoulder
And the car came to a stop
She cried when she saw that baby in the backseat sleeping like a rock
And for the first time in a long time
She bowed her head to pray
She said I'm sorry for the way I've been living my life
I know I've got to change
So from now on tonight

Jesus take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this all my own
I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
To save me from this road I'm on
Oh, Jesus take the wheel
Oh, I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
Save me from this road I'm on
From this road I'm on
Jesus take the wheel
Oh, take it, take it from me

never

2006-03-22T17:27:00.000+11:00

Mission impossible

I'm never going to be able to go back to Singapore to work. When I heard the news, my heart sank. I knew that people in my faculty were smart, but I didn't know that they were THAT brilliant. How do they do it? I'll never make it to the top 30%. I'll never graduate with honours. I'm fighting a losing battle. Heck. I don't even qualify to fight in the first place. My mom says I've already lost because I gave up without a fight. So be it. However I do remember Atticus (my hero and all-time favourite lawyer) saying in "To Kill a Mockingbird" that true courage is to stick with a task and fight till the end even though you know you've already lost (correct me if I'm wrong Juice). I wonder what's the point in that. Although it's true that lawyers have to do their best for their client even if they know he's guilty. argh I feel like tearing my hair out.

The more I think about it the more it SUCKS. The more I worry about it the more stressed I get. Why do they have to make it so difficult for us? We just want to go home. I just want to go home. *Michael Buble song "Home" plays in the background right about now*

Too late for regrets. What to do now? I fear for my future. Then again, WHAT future?

On a lighter note, I'm glad we have been utilising our time well this semester. Weekends have been fun and a great time to look forward to for destressing. I just wish that all 4 of us will work doubly hard this semester. (Syl don't forget our goals!)

torn

2006-03-22T01:10:00.000+11:00

Torn

It’s late, I’m tired and frustrated. Work has been piling up. I need a break already. Tomorrow is a long day for me. I anticipate another round of kopi.

I hate being caught in-between, not knowing what to do. Don’t you just hate it when you’re stuck with a few choices, not knowing which way to go and what to choose?

A friend of mine described a factual scenario to me yesterday (which sounded like my law tutorial) which I couldn’t answer: What would you do if you had a friend, A, and an even better friend, B, and you knew things about A that may be detrimental to B because of B’s relationship with A? Would you tell B the things you knew about A? Or would you just keep it to yourself?

What happens if the things you are going to tell B may not be good for their relationship with A? Would you still tell B the things about A at the risk of A and B’s relationship?

What if things became even more complicated and you happened to have a thing for B? Would you selfishly expose A in hopes that B would fall out with A and let you have a shot? Or would you keep things to yourself and let A make use of B?

If B is very happy with A now, would you bear to see B hurt now or in the long run? Or would you just cross your fingers and hope that in the long run, A would not hurt B?

Decisions, decisions. Tough stuff, but we have to make them everyday. Being caught in these situations involving relationships are never easy. Somehow or other, 1 person has to get hurt and you have the power to decide who. Would it be A, B or you?

this is my life

2006-03-20T04:33:00.000+11:00

This is life…my life

Here I am again late at night. It’s weird because recently when I start trying to study I sorta drift away into dreamland and start feeling all groggy and sleepy. Then I get ready for bed and when I finally lay down to sleep, I can’t and get insomnia. The power of books eh?

We had a party at our hostel last night. It was a “get-to-know-your-neighbour” party for all the tenants at our hostel as well as the hostel opposite ours, since it’s owned by the same person. It was kindda…weird. Let’s just say I met all sorts of people. Some nice ones, some funny ones, some just REALLY weird. I can’t even begin to tell you HOW weird. And then my friends and I stayed up till 3am just talking about weird pple we met.

I was stressed about work a few days ago. But I’ve sorted it all out. And…I believe that we can’t control what happens to us. As in, we can’t control fate, we can’t control destiny. We only have control over certain things in life. One of it is my studies. I can’t control how well I do. I say that because sometimes you can try really hard but in the end get crappy marks still. All I can do is do my best and let God take care of the rest. And as long as I can surely say that, yes, I have done my best, then whatever the outcome is, is in the hands of Him. And that will be my destiny. I realise that I always spend time worrying about situations that I have no control over. Which is a waste of time. It’s just like in soccer where whether your team gets to play in the final depends on whether a certain team loses or wins. Then you hope that the other team loses. But in the first place, you have to take care of your own side before you can worry about others. So I am now going to focus on the things that I have control over.

The world is a small place. TOO small. I just realised that a friend of mine, whom I got to know whilst working at A&G, is my mom’s friend’s daughter’s boyfriend. Really weird. And it just took 1 word (“dog”) on MSN for us to discover this. Turns out that his girlfriend was the owner of Hash, my dog. We’re both still in shock. The conversation went something like this:

Him: What I really need is a 2 hour run now

Me: Why don’t you go run around your house?

Him: I can’t because I need a nice straight long route

Me: I have a canal that’s long and straight behind my place. I bring my dog for a walk there sometimes

Him: What breed is your dog? My girlfriend has a dog

Me: It’s a mixed breed. The mother got raped by this unknown dog, but she’s a Siberian husky

Him: Oh, my girlfriend’s dog too. WAIT. You just got the puppy?

Me: Yah, why

*sudden realisation by both of us*

Him: MY GIRLFRIEND OWNS THE MUM

Me: YOU’RE KIDDING

Him: NO I’M NOT

Me: OH MY GAWD. Don’t tell me SHE’S…

Him: YES SHE IS

Me: I KNOW HER. Guess what?

Him: WHAT?

Me: My mom and her mom used to be colleagues

Him: THIS IS INCREDIBLE! IT’S OUT OF THIS WORLD!!! I AM STILL TRYING TO BREATHE…

So we had this long 2 hour conversation after that about my dog and its siblings, because he saw all 3 of them before 2 of them were given away. PHEW. It’s God’s will I tell you. And there I was minutes earlier, saying that he and his girlfriend are so sweet because they’ve been together for so long and he’s totally into her…and I happen to now KNOW her. And when I look back on it now, it actually was a very unrelated topic that led to all this. Amazing.

I am now running on caffeine. It’s 4:30am and I still haven’t finished my reading. I’m not tired but my eyes are really painful from staring at the computer for 3.5 hours non-stop. I understand that there’s a lot of reading to do but this is getting ridiculous. Week after week it piles up and no matter how long I spend reading, I never seem to be able to clear it. And now assignments are due in soon too??? I wonder how I’m going to cope this semester. I pray for strength. A LOT OF STRENGTH.

untitled

2006-03-18T02:05:00.001+11:00

Untitled

Iwish I could just drink it all away but here I am having a huge headache instead. Damn it. Can't even sleep. My friends are already probably in their warm comfy beds snoozing real well. Major frustration. I'm such a failure. Failure in everything. Why can't I just be good at something for once? What's the point of my existence then? I'm stupid. There. I said it. ARE YOU HAPPY NOW?! Say all you want. I don't care anymore. It doesn't hurt me anymore.

I want to start my life all over again. I want to do it right this time. I promise I will do it right this time. Can I have another chance please? Can I?

Commonwealth games

2006-03-15T22:19:00.000+11:00

Commonwealth games

Whee! The Commonwealth games are here in Melbourne! So exciting! Just saw the Singapore team. We're small compared to the rest (duh) - there are like 63 of us I think...but still, they will do us proud. The youngest competitor in the Commonwealth games is from Singapore...this 12 year old girl for table tennis. I wanted to go watch netball but all the games with Singapore inside are sold out! BAH. The other day we saw the England team training at our uni's sports stadium. Should have stayed longer to catch Singapore in action.

The other day when we were at the beach we saw the Malaysian cycling team (below)

The hilight of the whole show HAD to be Delta Goodrem singing. She has the most amazing voice of an angel that if you heard her sing you'd think you'd died and gone to heaven. And she looked so gorgeous! The symbol of perfection. Just that she's with that ex-Westlife dude. *screws up nose*

Go Singapore go!!!

wow

2006-03-15T14:52:00.000+11:00

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart.
In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.
You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.
Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love.
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.
You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage.
In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

This is amazingly accurate.

fate

2006-03-15T14:47:00.000+11:00

You Should Get a JD (Juris Doctor)

You're logical, driven, and ruthless.You'd make a mighty fine lawyer.

What Advanced Degree Should You Get?

It's fated after all.

one of those nights again

2006-03-14T21:28:00.000+11:00

One of THOSE nights again

It's one of those nights again. One of those nights when you're an emotional wreck and you can't describe exactly how you feel and why you feel that way but you just do and you can't stop it. And you can't concentrate on doing anything. And you feel frustrated. And you feel you need and want to talk to someone but don't know who to talk to and what to talk about. It's an internal struggle.

If only you could start life anew and do it right this time. If only you could turn back time. If only.

All this daydreaming that would never happen. When will I wake up to reality?

I'm standing right here in front of you
But you don't see me
You only see the girl standing next to me
I am invisible in your eyes
I hate being a shadow
It happens again and again
I'm so tired, my heart aches
Why do I allow it?
I'm asking for this pain
It's so much easier just to walk away
But I can't
I'm so pathetic it sucks
Why couldn't I be someone else?
Why can't I be her?

To Amy: I'm sorry for what I said, truly. I know you were probably already upset today after a long day and I said what I said (about the suicide thing) without thinking, as usual. I should have been more sensitive. I'm really sorry.

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

2006-03-13T14:12:00.000+11:00

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Sienness. It's the beginning of week 3 today. I'm already drowning in my reading. Just drowning in it. Picture it. Imagine it. It's pretty scary.

On top of that I already have an assignment due at the end of the month. WTF.

Nothing's been going on lately. The girls and I went to the beach on Sat morning and shopped the rest of the day. Sunday we went to play badminton for a grand total of 2 hours and are now aching all over. The weekend just flew by like that.

I can't believe I've been back for 2 weeks only. It feels like it's been ages.

My internet and phone will only be up tmr (HOPEFULLY). Feel damn deprived without it.

I had many things to say before this...and suddenly my mind's a blank. Things come to me before I sleep and in the shower or whilst I'm daydreaming...then when I want to write them down I forget. Aihz. I had a series of weird dreams last night. Had a disturbed sleep. This is what happens when you read gossip mags before you sleep.

Feeling Taiwan-deprived. No drama serials for me to watch. No 5566 tv to watch. I'm having withdrawal symptoms. Nothing can make up for it. ArGH I wanna go home and watch wan quan yu le!!!

Yawnz have to go to research on abortion laws now. Take care everybody! Look fwd and keep smiling!!! :)

GAO MENG AH!!!

2006-03-04T14:19:00.000+11:00

GAO MENG AH!!!! (means "help me" in Canto)

aihz. The weekend is finally here. Had a great time out in the city yesterday with Mich and Syl. Nearly fainted when we got home. Had been on our feet for 10 hours. Shopping is VERY tiring. No more shopping till Easter!!!

I am damn pissed with Iprimus. Everytime I try and reconnect my internet and phone line they screw it up. Every bloody time. I can't even begin to explain how inconvenient it is without internet and phone. I can't call home. I can't access my notes online. I can't access my email. I am VERY pissed. If they can't give me a valid explanation on Monday as to why they haven't hooked me up yet then I'm leaving. Had enough of this shit.

Easter is coming!! They're selling all the chocolate eggs already.

Studying begins today. Wish us luck. A LOT of it.

stupid, stupid, stupid

2006-03-01T17:45:00.000+11:00

Stupid, Stupid, STUPID!!!

Been trying for the past 2 hrs to read 40 pages of my Evidence textbook and it's not working. I'm not concentrating. I'm only at page 12. There are things I don't understand....like, why do they have to speak in round about sentences with flowery language when they can do it the straightfwd way??? I don't get it. I realise everytime I hit a boring spot or a spot I don't understand, I start thinking of things. Stupid things. Things that happened in the past. Things I wish would happen. Things that I regret doing. Things that I would like to do in future. Day-dreaming is my favourite past-time. And then it just carries me away and I'm lost in my thoughts. That's how time passes so fast. Even during lectures. When the lecturer starts droning on and on, I unconsciously lapse into a day-dreaming coma and nothing will go into my brain for the next few minutes until I hear "yes that was important so you need to take note of that" and then I'd snap out of my dream and scurry to ask a friend what the lecturer was talking about. Hiahz. What am I going to do??

Maybe that's the reason for my insomnia. Thinking too much. About stupid things. Aihz.

back in melb

2006-02-28T18:18:00.000+11:00

Back in Melb

Yoyo I'm back! And all settled in already. Today back to uni again. Hasn't changed much. That's all I have to say. Made new friends and groaned over assignments. Property is the new Contract. ACK.

Will update again soon!!

All the best to Peg, Grace, Eunice, Xiao Zhi and Shanta for your results tomorrow!!!

courtesy

2006-02-24T13:04:00.000+11:00

Courtesy. Is there such a word in the Singaporean dictionary?

I wish Singaporeans would be more courteous and generous. I can't say that ALL Singaporeans are NOT courteous in general. There are a few extremely helpful and nice people out there. But not enough.

I was on the MRT one morning. Every morning when the MRT door opens, I see people from the outside rush in as if their life depended on that train ride, obstructing the way of everyone who is trying their darnest to get out. Which makes this a two-way tussle and a lose-lose situation. If they'd ONLY TRY and just WAIT for the people from inside the MRT to get out FIRST, THEN go in, things would be much more plesant and efficient. BUT NO....we are well-known for our kiasu-ness. On the other hand yes, people who are on the inside of the train should make a quick exit. Some of them dilly-dally and by the time everyone gets out, the train door is about to shut. There must always be a two-way balance.

As I was saying, that particular morning I saw 2 incidents which left me disgusted. One was when this young lady was on the verge of collapse and clearly needed help. But no one lifted a finger to help her. Or help me. Who was trying to help her. You see, as this lady was exiting the MRT door, she stopped and grabbed me on the shoulder. I got a shock and wondered what on earth was happening. Then I realised that she was in a daze. Her eyes were blinking rapidly and she was not responding to my questions. I tried to help her out the door but she was hanging onto me for dear life. Then she stopped between the doors and it was about to SHUT!!! So I quickly pulled her back into the MRT. Which was when she slumped to the ground. I tried to hold her up whilst looking around for help. Suddenly the ceiling looked so interesting. Everyone was staring at it and I was not able to catch their eye or ask for help. Frustrated, I asked a lady from the nearest seat if she could please let this other lady have the seat because she was not feeling well. She obliged very politely and that's where I left her. Whatever happened next I have no idea because I got out of the MRT and left for work. I wish someone could have helped.

The very same morning before this incident, a very pregnant lady stepped into the MRT and stood right in front of another lady who looked very normal and was taking up the seat. The lady who was sitting down refused to budge. The pregnant lady stood throughout the entire journey. This is where I felt that I should have said something but I didn't. Because I was afraid that the pregnant woman would feel embarrassed. Silly me. I should have said something. The last time I got up for an elderly lady to sit down, she asked her grandchild to sit down instead!! That's why I never sit on MRTs. It just makes things easier.

One more thing: What is up with people who are trying to get a taxi on the road and other people who come later than you, move further down the road and get the taxi first?! WHAT THE HELL?! I was already late and needed a taxi fast. And noooooo....people just kept coming and going further down the road so that they would flag the oncoming cabs first. I didn't want to yell and kick up a fuss so I just had to wait my turn. It's just so disgusting.

What kind of a society are we turning into? Kiasu-ness and selfishness are taking over us. We need to do something about it.

phew

2006-02-23T00:08:00.000+11:00

phew

For the first time I got all of my timetable selections except one. This dumb tute which has only 2 classes: 5:30pm and 7pm. I obviously selected the 5:30pm one (which is already crap as it is) but as usual, EVERY FREAKING BODY also selected that and I got booted to the 7pm one. I just have to go to the 5:30pm one illegally.

That's the end of my attachment at A&G. Good times. Can't believe it's only been 1.5 weeks. Haha they gave me their landyard with the company name on it as a souvenir. Hiahz. Gonna miss the great people there really badly. Shanta, Yong Seng, Nick, William, Colin, Cheng Hock, Jessica, Bernice, Ashok, Vikrum etc etc etc. Thanks so much for the great experience that you gave me in this short duration. I will definitely be back.

I've learnt so much. The best thing is that a lot of it will be relevant to what I'm going to study this sem. Thank God I did the attachments. If not I would not have a CLUE of what was REALLY going on. It all looks glamourous but behind it all ALOT of work goes on.

Okies, wun bore u pple with my work experience anymore. Cheers!

Sigh

2006-02-22T00:27:00.000+11:00

Sigh

I'm supposed to check out how my timetable is this sem but I can't cuz the server is experiencing heavy load. Damn. I shud have checked it early this morning but I had to go to work. Damn. Now I'm gonna get a crap timetable I just know it.

2mr is my last day at work. It has been fun. But freaking tiring. I've been in the high court for 2 whole days since yesterday. Tmr one more day. There's been this huge bank case and it's going on for the next 3 weeks. So exciting. I got to see 3 of the best lawyers in Singapore fight it out. The judge is super funny. He makes the lawyers look meek. Tmr is the cross-examination of witnesses. Going to be even more exciting. Woohoo!! I'm actually sad to leave the company. Gonna miss some of the people there. I thought that lawyers (esp the big shot ones) were snooty. Boy was I wrong. Most of the ones I've met are damn nice. Only one I've met was a little...er...mood swing kindda person. But other than that, they are all major nice. One of the senior counsels came up to me and shook my hand and asked for my name. ME!!! A SMALL FRY. The bottom of the food chain. I thought that nobody would even bother. But they all smile and say hi whenever they see me. So nice. :) You should see the amount of paperwork they have. Stacks and stacks of it. It filled the whole courtroom. And even piled up higher than me. My friend saw it and whispered to me that law firms are the biggest killers of trees. I think so too.

And I got to drive! Haha...mother suddenly let me drive to NTU. Then I drove home today too. It's quite ok. Feels natural. Doesn't feel as if I haven't drive in ages. And the Lexus is such a smooth rider. I'm gonna get me one. Muahhhahaha...Though it's slightly too big. I nearly crashed into my house gate though. Mother had to come and take over lol. Think she got another heart attack.

Oohh there's this new Taiwanese singer called A Lin. Dun ask me what kind of name is that. But she's really good. Like this powerhouse. She looks like Joey Yong haha. I'm surprised with these new singers. They are actually quality singers.

Going back to Melb soon. Another sem of work. DUN WANT!!! Pooey.

Dun understand how come some people have gou yan themselves and still want to kan ren di. hiahz. These kind of people really wu ke jiu yao. They have a huge log in their own eye that they can't see but they can still see the speck of dirt in other people's eyes. Tsk tsk.

gtg sleep. Damn freaking tired. Try sitting still listening to 5 hrs a day of old men fighting a boring case haha. Happy 18th birthday to my brudder!!!

uncertainty

2006-02-15T23:05:00.000+11:00

Uncertainty

I change my mind abt the lawyer thing. Or maybe it's just the lawyers in the current firm. Totally NOT droolworthy. And the male pupils (you know after law school you have to go through pupilage before you become a lawyer) are like gross. They are either gay-ish or totally boring. And OLD. Aihz. The other firm had better ones. Totally depressing. Totally boring. Totally uninspiring. Totally unmotivational. Totally sien diaoz.

Today I had no work. I sat at my desk from 9am to 5pm staring into space whilst everyone else was busy. I was so bored I went to have a chat with the coffee auntie. If I had known I wouldn't have gone to work today and stayed at home to sleep instead. *yawnz*.

Gtg watch tv. Then sleep. The weekend is coming soon. SOON. Muahhahaha...UGH.

SO...FREAKING...TIRED

2006-02-14T03:35:00.000+11:00

SO...FREAKING...TIRED

Have u gotten to that point when no matter how much you sleep, it doesn't matter because when you get up you still feel tired anyway?? *points 2 me* I've been feeling that way recently. Wonder if it's because of my 9am to 6pm job. Waking up is such a chore nowadays. Especially when your body refuses to change it's programmed time of sleeping no earlier than 1am.

First day of the new firm was good. It's a huge and gorgeous building with views overlooking the esplanade and the whole of the Singapore river. Splendid. I miss some people at the last firm though. Even though it was only for a short period of time, some people there made me feel so welcome. And I was so grateful for that.

10 more days till flying back.

Getting back into the studying groove will be harder than waking up early.

The world is real small. As I told Amy, the intern I'm sitting next to is her friend. We can now gossip abt her *sniggers*. And she even knows Carrie (Syl's friend). And the 2 people who used to sit at my current desk are studying law in Monash and are friends of Cheryl. Creepy how we're all linked eh.

Going to bed. Tomorrow's only Tuesday. End of the week please come soon. *prays hard*

*SNORE*

Happy Valentine's Day everyone!!! *MUAKZ*!!!

Absolutely divine

2006-02-12T03:32:00.000+11:00

Absolutely divine

I love Alex Li Gang Ling (Taiwanese)

and Kaira Gong Si Jia (Singaporean).

These 2 newcomers have talent and loads of it. They sing so damn well!!!

TGITW

2006-02-11T02:51:00.000+11:00

TGITW - Thank God It's The Weekend

I have never been so thankful for the weekend to come. I'm done with my first internship! Whoopee!!! TIME TO REST. It was short but memorable. On to the next one next week!!! *cross fingers that it would be better* One order of cute male lawyers in the next one please. Male lawyers are so totally droolworthy. The right ones of course (Peg I KNOW who u are thinking of *rolls eyeballs*). They exude this air of confidence that is so charming.

Well, if nothing, at least this coming one I'm being paid.

I'm so tired. Then again, who isn't?

Oh yea. Slacker people like Michio and Chandra *sticks tongue out at them* (stop threatening to cut mah tongue off Mich).

Amy you poor soul. I totally sympathise with you. More fun when we get back I promise!!

2 more weeks and it's back to uni. 4th year. Time flies. I'm kindda looking fwd to it. Then again, I'm looking even more fwd to the Easter hols *sniggers*. And then June hols, and then Sep hols and then end of the year hols. Whee~!

I hope this year brings with it new challenges. New attitude. New perspectives. This year is going to be a forward looking one. This year will be different. I can feel it. This year I'm going to devote my time to my God and my studies - no more play play cuz last 2 years are the most impt!!! (although I always say that but get distracted afterwards). This year will be a year devoted to MYSELF. To do what I WANT. What I LIKE. (as if I'm not already but who cares). This year no more BULL SHIT from people. NO means NO. *pumps fist in the air like Amy* After this internship I realised how much I'm slacking - how incompetent I am and how much I don't know. Aihz. It sucks to feel that way. *knocks brain for it to wake up from slumber* It's really scary. But then, it's never too late too wake up.

Time's-a-ticking. Hols are gonna be over soon. Another semester of tests, exams, work, essays, assignments, lectures, tutes etc. On the other hand - steamboats, shopping, chilling in front of the tv, karaokeing in private, badminton, toking crap late into the night and lots of other fun things in store for us. You can change your whole life if you just change your attitude towards it. It seems hard at first but I guess you could try. Nothing to lose right.

This semester is also going to be a treasured one. Why do I say that? Cuz it's Michy's last sem!!! So the end of the sem will be a really sad one. Then again it's good for her since she can find a job and go back and work already!! Then we will all attend her graduation!!

Btw Peg and I both passed our basic theory (if we didn't that would be embarrassing). So yay! Gonna convert my licence to a full Singapore one next week! Not that I can drive. (come to think abt it, I duno why I wanted to drive because now it feels so much better to be driven around). But that just means that I wun have to bother abt licence-related things forever (unlike Peg who still has to sit for the advance theory and practical). Good luck Prags!!

Juice, when am I going to see you again??

Ok shall stop toking and go to sleep *yawnz*. Damn tired. Btw Amy, any new people we can recruit into our clique this sem?

Thank you again to all my friends who have been my pillar of support these few years. Without you "MACHIs" I would be...friendless *snorts like Amy*.

Cheers to a great semester ahead!! *MUAKZ* :)

Monday is looming

2006-02-05T15:02:00.000+11:00

Monday is looming

After years of slacking, the dreaded sentence is back again, "It's MONDAY tomorrow!!!". Another 5 days of work. IN A ROW. UGH.

I called up my mom's friend's husband who's this smart ass lawyer. He answered all my questions (and even provided books that I could look up) from the top of his head. Genius. If I had known, I would have asked him earlier. Dang.

Another 19 days before I fly back to Melbourne. Time passes pretty fast (but not when you are working). My 3 mths of hols are slowly slipping away. Double dang. And then at the end of next year, I will be back for good. That feels weird. It's been 4.5 years and this while I've been having 2 places to go to. Then suddenly when everything is over and done with...I lose one. It's just weird lah. I mean, it's good to be home for good but then when you think abt it, there's nowhere to look fwd to going when you want your private time and space (Although my mom said once I start working she'll buy me a flat and boot me out of the house). When you live by yourself, you can do what you want when you want. Like I can sleep till 4pm and nobody cares (besides Mich who will yell at me, but who cares abt that LOL). If I sleep till 4pm here, my parents will totally kick my ass. And then I will have to listen to a whole lot of, "I feed you until 21 already, still hao chi lan zuo, never earn money, never do anything. Just slack around the whole day! Never even bother to read and enrich your mind! Never help around the house! Just know how to spend my money!" yadayadayadayada....that sort of crap.

Last night Peg and I met an old woman. She was asking for directions. And then told this whole long story that she hadn't had anything to eat all day. And that she needed to go to Changi to see her husband in hospital. And that she hurt her leg. And that she lost her bus card. And then asked for money. Peg said we were conned. To be honest, I'd rather give her money than give that guy from NKF who had gold taps in his bathroom. What's his name again? I can never remember his name. Not that it matters, really. Because whenever I think of him, he'll just be known to me as the "guy from NKF who had gold taps in his bathroom".

Then I saw this woman on "qian xian zui zhong" (some Chinese news show). I think she loves her dog more than she loves anything in the world, including herself. Because of her dog, she moved from a HDB flat to a condo. Then because of the expensive maintainence of it, she owed loansharks $$ and then became broke and had to live on the streets. Now she's living at a flight of stairs (you know when you have 2 flights of stairs and you need a connector landing? yea she's living at the landing of the stairs). She and her dog just sleep under an umbrella on a straw mat. And she cut her hair short and made herself look like a man so that no one would bother her. And then she cooks soupy noodles with chicken everyday for her meals and she gives the dog the meat whilst she eats the noodles and chicken skin and soup. *stares in disbelief* I dun understand how someone can love their dog more than their family. Oh maybe yes. Since sometimes family members can even betray each other for money. A dog will never want your money. Just your love. And food of course.

Ok sorry for rambling. Need to go for lunch now. Check you guys out laterz!!!

chinked out

2006-02-03T03:22:00.000+11:00

Chinked-out...and bloody tired

3rd Feb 2006

Whee~I'm using super fast internet today cuz some dumbo in the vacinity has got wireless internet!! And my mom has a new laptop so it's damn nice to use...I love Dell computers. They are so user friendly. Simple yet good. Like Nokia phones.

It's only been 2 days at work...and I'm so damn tired. Haven't been sleeping well for the past few days. Dang. No idea why. I think it's cuz I'm too used to sleeping late nights and waking up late as well...so now my body can't sleep early and yet I'm forced to wake up early. Hiahz. The experience at D&N so far has been pretty good. It's been mundane but yet I daresay I've learnt a lot. There's so much research to be done. I stare at the computer for hours on end just searching for 1 single thing. But research is the best way to learn. You read and understand and look for the answers. In the process you remember the things you have read and can use them next time. Very useful. The worst part about it is probably reading the cases. We have to read the entire freaking case including judgments which can sometimes be hundreds of pages long. And they expect us to remember everything and understand everything. Boooo...

I admire my mentor. He has infinite brain capacity. You can tell by just talking to him. He can type up a whole document for his client from scratch from memory in just 2 mins. When I took like a whole day. In fact, all the lawyers there are smart asses. So stressful to work for such people. Been helping him and another lawyer with some divorce cases. People nowadays are so rich. Little bit also get divorced. It's so expensive to get married, and even more expensive and not to mention so much hassle to get divorced. No wonder lawyers are rich. I saw all the bills for the consulation fees and nearly fainted. I wonder why people even bother getting married. But lawyers work hard for their money. I'm supposed to leave at 5:30pm everyday but I leave at 6pm cuz I want to finish as much as possible before I go home (they won't let me bring work home to do!!!). At 6pm, everybody is still working as if there's no tomorrow. I felt so bad to leave - then this girl who just started working there saw me and said, "Run as far as you can!! I have to stay back for a long time more but you run whilst you still can!!". Sad case man. I wonder if they have a life besides an office one.

I watched "I not stupid too" yesterday. It's a good show. I was surprised. It's funny yet sad at the same time. It was full house yesterday somemore, despite the not-so-good reviews in the papers. I bet it would touch many Singaporean hearts.

4th Feb 2006

I just managed to continue this after my mom snatched the computer away from me yesterday. Today was major tiring. TGIF man!!! I spent the whole day in the library amidst thousands of books researching the damn law. Still couldn't find what my mentor wants. I.AM.SO.DEAD. ARGH!!! Frustration to the highest degree. I can't wait to leave this company and start the other one already. Actually I can't wait to go back to uni. Uni life is the best man. If only I could study forever. Best if I can slack forever. But that's never gonna happen. I'm not Donald Trump's daughter. Even she can't slack.

My eyes are closing and I still have tons of research to do online. HELP ME!!!

can't sleep

2006-02-01T04:20:00.000+11:00

Can't sleep!!!

It's 1:23am and I can't sleep. Maybe it's the coffee I drank during dinner. Maybe it's too hot. My air-con is not working properly. Maybe it's cuz of the bug in my room. I can't find it but I can hear it buzzing around. And it sounds big. I tried to cover my whole body with my blanket in order to protect myself from it but it got even hotter. Maybe it's cuz in 6.5 hrs I will be leaving the house for the beginning of my internship. I am totally freaked out. TOTALLY. Yes. That must be it. I don't know what to expect. I hate that. I'm just crossing my fingers that everything will be all right *prays very hard*. I haven't even stepped into the office and I'm already intimidated. Useless.

*sighz*. This is bad. I hate it when I can't sleep and I NEED to sleep cuz I have important stuff to do the next day. *double sighz*. SAVE ME!!!

yay

2006-01-25T13:46:00.000+11:00

Yay!

I finally got my internships. Both of them too. D&N first for 2 weeks then A&G for the remaining 2 weeks I have left in Singapore. So stupid. When I was free, no one wanted me. Then now when I have only a mth left in Singapore they call me at the same time. Pooey. Better than nothing I guess.

For some strange reason my temper is getting shorter and shorter (no corny jokes here please Amy). I snap at the slightest thing that people say which irritate me. I've been using "shut up", "eat shit" and "idiot" frequently. PMS? Don't know. This year my horoscope predicts that I will offend people with the things I say. Dang. Can't help it. I am surrounded by idiots. Who say the stupidest things. One day I will chop their tongues out before mine. If I could I would get a voodoo doll and curse the people I hate till they die. YOU just wait. YOU KNOW WHO you are. You are going to get it from me if you go too far. I will not spare anyone this year.

Gotta go buy stuff for my party tonight. Cheers to a great Chinese New Year!!!

idiots

2006-01-23T13:13:00.000+11:00

I am surrounded by idiots.

bday

2006-01-20T14:39:00.000+11:00

A BIG THANK YOU TO:

JUICE

PEG

YUAN

RARA

SER

EUNICE

XIAO ZHI

AMY

SYL

FOR THROWING ME THE

BEST PARTY OF MY LIFE
(can you believe it???)

I am too trusting. I should never believe everything my friends say. And I should never lend my sister my handphone.

When I walked into the restaurant thinking that only 5 of us were having dinner together, out walked Amy, Syl and Eunice. My first reaction was not to be shocked. I was really happy. And touched too because I knew Syl was busy studying but she still took time off to come down. All the while I was feeling guilty that Amy and Syl would not be able to join us for dinner. I always am apprehensive about mixing my friends because I have different groups of friends and I don't want people to feel left out. Because I know I would feel extremely uncomfortable in that situation. But yesterday I had all my good friends together, and it felt wonderful. Even if we didn't do anything but sit and talk, it would feel great because everyone was getting on well (aiyah of cos lah, the friends I choose to keep are all alike in one way or the other). Anyway, Juice and Peg managed to get Amy and Syl's number because they asked my sister to borrow my handphone. I should have put Amy's name as "pigbrain" or something so my sister wouldn't know who's number it was. Sneaky people.

All the while in Aus I've been planning birthdays for people. Until the point I thought: If only someone could do this for me (so you all know what to do every year from now ah!). Thank you for the great time we had last night (even though it was only 2 hours). Thank you for being part of my life. Thank you for the dinner (though the food could have been better) and the cake (this was the best part of the food section) and the present (you shouldn't have) and the photo collage (all my unglam pics!!!) and the card from Amy and Syl and the very creative msg from Juice and Peg. Thank you Amy for the CD (I LOVE WANG LI HONG!!) and honey (I know I'm your honey but it smells funny - and what am I going to do with it??). Aiyah we should have played some games together. Nvm. Next time. Thank you to Juice and Peg especially for making everything possible (even though yesterday was not my real birthday). But I really appreciated it. The only person missing was Michy (you couldn't even come down to Singapore?!?! Nvm, we'll celebrate again in Melb since you missed Amy's bday, mine and Syl's!!!)

Once again, thanks all for an AWESOME night!!

~People walk in and out of your life. But only TRUE friends leave footprints in your heart. People say that in life, if you make 1 true friend you are lucky. 2 true friends you are fantastic. 5 true friends is a miracle. But I have more than 10 sets of footprints in my heart. I must be blessed.

21st

2006-01-15T15:48:00.000+11:00

21st

Hulo everybody! Yeayea, I know I'm gonna be 21 soon, so here's some helpful tips IF you were going to get me anything at all.

1. NO clothes - I don't like it when people give me clothes because most of the time they don't know what I like. So I end up not wearing them. So don't waste your money here.

2. NO wallet - I know that some of you think I need a new wallet but this is something that's very personal to me that I would like to get myself. Thanks.

3. NO accessories unless they are silver - I only wear silver or white gold most of the time - In the first place I hardly wear accessories

4. NO girly stuff - like makeup or what not. Fragrances are ok. Other than that, I don't use.

5. NO books - I don't like to read, and if I do see a book I like I will buy it. But at the moment, no.

If you don't know what to get me, just send me a card and write lots of nonsense in it! I keep ALL my cards (unless there are special circumstances) and I like receiving them, esp. by post.

Thanks guys, have a happy lunar new year!!

Japan pictures

2006-01-10T16:31:00.000+11:00

Pictures from Japan

Helloo everybodeee!!! These are some pics that we took in Japan. These are all the scenery ones.

This is Mt Fuji

This is Osaka Castle

Isn't the snow simply gorgeous?

This is my favourite picture - Looks like you stepped into Heaven eh?

Locate the temple within the forest!!

My mom was crazy abt the many red trees there

Frozen waterfall

Sorry!!

2005-12-31T17:53:00.000+11:00

Sorry!!!

Sorry pple. This is a short blog to say SORRY FOR MIA-ING!!! Argh. You know lah...I dun really like to blog when I come back home cuz the laptop is not my own (not used to it) and I have pics to show but it's too troublesome to shrink it then post it on another webpage before I get the url code to stick it in here. Besides, my internet is freaking slow.

Anywho this is going to be a brief update.

Japan: It was fun. We got to see snow (the REAL stuff)!! When I say real, I mean not ice. I mean real, flaky snow. Snow that when it falls and when you catch it in your hand you can see every tiny pattern of snow flake there is. Now THAT is really snow. It was snowing pretty heavily cuz it got quite deep. It was like heaven on earth. Gorgeous. Needless to say, everything was expensive. A meal of just noodles will cost you at least S$15. And the food was so-so. The thing abt Jap food is that there are certain things which are nice. Which is their ramen, udon, sushi, tempura etc. Then there are other things which are not so nice. For example, they HAVE to have rice for 3 meals. For lunch and dinner they have rice AND noodles. And they occasionally gave us meat. 3 slices of pork sliced so thinly that i could see through it. They hardly eat meat actually. More seafood. They are very healthy as well. They also love to eat pickles. Pickles in every shape, color, taste and size. I hate them. Taste funny. And they are crazy abt mochi. I dun like that either. But I enjoyed this trip so much more than the China one last year cuz everyone on the tour was nice. And they were always on time, never late. We ended up waiting half an hr each time for the China tour people because they were so inconsiderate and always shopping their heads off. Besides, Japan was clean *haha*.

KL: That was the usual lah. Visit relatives. Enjoyed myself playing with all my nieces and nephews. Boy they just pop them out like no one's business! Sat the coach there and back. Not bad, it was like an airplane. They had toilets inside, comfy big massage chairs, personal LCD screen and even meals provided muahahha. And it was only $35 per trip I think. Or less. Hmm. Quite good. Never expected to meet Jeremy at the causeway. And I was like half asleep.

Other than that: I have just been slacking around as usual. I LOVE NARNIA!!! The lead actor is hot. William something. Muahhaha. It was funny. The beavers were hilarious. The lion (Aslan) reminded me of Dumbledore. The all-wise and mighty ruler. New year is coming!!! Happy 2006 everybody! It's a fresh start, new beginning. Forget how horrible 2005 was!!! WELCOME IN THE DOG YEAR!!!

5566 concert: I HAD THE TIME OF MY LIFE!!! My word...That was prob the best time I had in 2005. It was 3.5 hrs of rocking fun and entertainment!!! I have so much more respect for them now cuz they danced and sang LIVE (so there all u idiots who say they can't sing) for the whole show. And I saw them so clearly cuz we were the 2nd block from the front. SO FUN SO FUN!!! Hiahz...I LOVE THEM!!!

Oh dear. I thought this was going to be a brief update but oh well. I've said most of what I wanted to say. So cheers and be merry everybody!!!

Till a very long next time...BYE!!!

B4 21 plan complete

2005-12-02T01:27:00.000+11:00

B4 21 plan complete

I have officially graduated from my Arts degree. My B4 21 plan is complete. Any ideas for B4 22 plan? (NO bungee jumping or parachuting ok Amy)

Thanks Amy and Syl for an awesome 2 days. Enjoy urself in Cambodia Amy! And Syl, enjoy stoning *lol*. Mich you no need to worry cuz u going to have company soon muahahha.

I am damn full. Anybody who's going on a diet should NEVER go out with Amy Cheong.

Won't be back for a long time. Dun miss me!!! *waves frantically* BYeeeeeeee...

Harry Potty 4

2005-11-29T15:38:00.000+11:00

Harry Potty 4

I only have one thing to say about this movie: SHIOK!!! It's really good. The effects were fantastic and I really enjoyed the whole thing overall. The suspense was amazing. You even jump in terror a few times. I was even doing the Amy thing (where she thumps both legs on the ground and yells in a kancheong voice, "quickerly! quickerly!!!" Yah it was pretty exciting. Though it was too short (2.5hrs)...I feel like I could sit there and watch it forever. Too bad Cedric died though (I cried at this part haha - too bad didn't watch it with Amy). He was pretty good looking. Of course not as good looking as Oliver Wood. But ok. Cho Chang was all right (she's quite pretty) but she had this funny accent (Scottish I reckon) and she appeared for a total of a min in the movie. It was much better than the 3rd movie I reckon. And wassup with this new Dumbledore? He talks as if he's rushing to get reincarnated...I prefer the old one. Too bad he died. Harry is getting better looking and Ron is just er xin. Harry should get together with Hermione. Their names even match *sniggers*. Anyway it was a great movie - I want to watch it again!!!

Contrasted it with Prime, which I watched with my sister yesterday. That was boring mate. There were a few laughs here and there but on the whole, *snore*. As my sister said, there's really no plot in the story. And they didn't even end up together in the end despite the numerous break-ups and get-back-togethers. The only redeeming factor is the hot lead actor. But I don't even know his name.

That's about all for the moment. Looking forward to Japan and KL. Cheers to all and enjoy your hols!!

buffet

2005-11-25T17:55:00.000+11:00

Buffet crisis - cronic indigestion

You know, in Chinese it's called "bu fei", which means "wun get fat". Yeah right. Juice, Peg and I gorged ourselves till we nearly died yesterday at Miranmar Hotel (however you spell it). And there is no other word more apt to describe it than gorge. We sat there from 11:30am to 2:30pm just eating. We could hardly get up after that. It was terrible. I'm never doing it again (yea right). But for $14 each we polished off more than 30 plates of dim sum. It was not bad. Some of the food was good but some were not as good. On the whole for that price, it was not bad. Then we went back to Juice's house to play mahjong. The tai tai lifestyle doesn't suit me very much. I went back and couldn't eat anything until an hour ago. :S

Going to Japan soon. Followed by KL the day after I come back from Japan. My parents are going to Bangkok straight after we come back from KL. The 3 of us (kids) decided we CMI. By then I think we'd be so tired we won't be able to move. Who in their right mind goes to 3 countries in the span of 10 days?

I'm so tired. From doing nothing. Should really go do SOMETHING. Neh. Will just wait and rot until next Saturday comes. :D This is the life man.

Nothing much to say anymore. Will blog more soon. Can't wait for 5566's concert!!! Take care everyone! Enjoy what's left of the hols!!!

ps: Mich this site is for you: www.bored.com - full of boring things for you to do!!! Enjoy!!!

Hash

2005-11-21T17:00:00.000+11:00

Hashbrown

That's the new name of my puppy. Hash for short. Got him yesterday. He is officially 6 weeks old of today. He's about 30cm long and brown. Gorgeous short silky fur. Got him from my mom's friend.

Hey don't look at me. I didn't name him. His mom had 3 kids. Hashbrown, Mash and Wedge. What do they remind you of? Yes. Their mom's name was Potato. *shrugs*

Suddenly I've become popular with my friends. Everyone wants to come over to see him and not me. HMPH.

He's adorable. Adorably naughty. Aside from the fact that he pees and excretes everywhere, he's a dear. If you're sitting down he'll crawl into your lap and snooze. He loves to be hugged and stroked. He loves it when my sister scratches his head.

He kindda stinks. Doggy smell you know. But I didn't know it'll be this strong. Guess I will have to get used to it. Can only bathe him once a week. Dang. Michelle, please ask Frank/Ai Xiu for me how they keep Scruffy odour free?

He's at the teething stage so he loves to chew my toes. Lucky he doesn't have big teeth yet.

He sleeps most of the day but is awake all night, just like a baby.

How can you tell he's my sorta dog? He loves to eat, sleep and hates drinking water.

Pictures will be out soon. Patience is a virtue.

daily scoop

2005-11-18T23:47:00.000+11:00

The daily scoop

Remember the ice cream stall I was telling you guys about? Well yes, it's just outside my place…around 5 mins walk from it. It just opened last year and it's really popular. The ice cream tastes great and they have unique flavours. The owner is nice too. Next time I'll bring you people there for ice cream. Syl, I have a funny feeling you'd want to work there. Check it out at: http://www.thedailyscoop.com.sg/

jap name

2005-11-16T21:55:00.000+11:00

Japanese name

Ok Michy I finally managed to open it. What a weird name. Lucky I'm not Japanese.

My japanese name is 吉国 Yoshikuni (good fortune country) 千秋 Chiaki (very fine in autumn).

i miss melbourne

2005-11-14T22:02:00.000+11:00

I miss Melbourne - to my dear friends Michy & Ams

I went to see "Just like Heaven" with my sister today. It was a good movie. Why? I love Mark Ruffalo or however you spell his name. He's darn cute. Not looks cute but cute, cute. Nvm. Anyway, it was darn hot. I felt so sticky and uncomfortable and you know what happens when I get sticky and uncomfortable. I get grouchy. UH HUH. Then your hair sticks all over your neck and you feel like chopping it all off. I miss Melbourne weather. And Melbourne cinemas.

Anyway yes Amy, there's no pleasing me. I always find something to complain about. It's in my nature. I'm a perfectionist with OCD. I can't help that. Remember my knitting? *lol* I won't even go there. It's stagnant at the mo.

So how was jogging Michy? Your body still aching? You were the one who said that you needed to exercise. *muahahha* So how many rounds did you all do? Sorry I'm replying this way. I hate writing emails for some strange reason. Coolios, you guys went for pottery classes! Did you all sing the "Ghost" theme song?! *buahhahahah*

Darn, I just realised that not only Syl has ice-cream in the freezer, so have I. Please knock yourselves out. How come you people so bored man. There are so many things to do. Read, go shopping, knit, watch movies, Despo hsewives, Grey's and House, tv, EAT…how can you people be bored?!

Stupid Dimuthu fella. Next time you people see him give him a good twacking.

Michy I forgot to ask you for another favor. If you did go to uni again could you just ask the info desk if my wallet is there? Thanks heaps. Dun forget the photos Amy! And my cards turn up yet?

Amy - All the best for your last exam. You'll be fine. I thought you were busy studying for your sub-paper. Still got time to be bored ah? (though I'm sure you won't need to sit for it)

You know, what I miss most about Melbourne is not the weather (then again, maybe it is). It's not the cinemas. It's not the fact that I have a huge room all to myself with everything inside. It's the people. It's my hostel mates. They are the greatest. Thanks Mich, Amy & Syl. Life wouldn't be complete without you.

Freaking hot

2005-11-13T19:03:00.000+11:00

Home sweet home - but freaking hot

It's been a crap weekend. I shall not elaborate much but the trip back was pretty crap. We had crap seats. They put us in the middle row and I was sitting next to some ang moh girl. Fortunately she was ok. Was wedged in-between 2 kids. One who kept kicking my chair from the back and one in front who put the seat down so low there was hardly any distance between the LCD screen and my face. The pilots flew too slowly and arrived only in 7.5 hrs. It's usually 7. When I arrived at the airport I couldn't find my family. Panicked and ran out to the information desk and made 2 calls. Both my brother and mother did not answer their phones. Was something wrong? Apparently they didn't hear me. Syl had to change money to get me coins to use the public phone when I finally spotted them. Then we went back and when I just stepped into the house there was a call from the airport saying me and another girl took the wrong luggage and I had to go back to exchange it. That girl took my bag and went all the way from the airport back to JB before she discovered it. Our bags were so similar you wouldn't believe it. Just that mine had an extra green ribbon and a different lock. The stupidest thing is that she still took it. Zhen dao mei.

Other than that, it's freaking hot here. I'm melting.

Had my favourite carrot cake last night and satay whilst watching my mom's school's angklong ensemble perform at lau par sat. Had dim sum from Crystal Jade today. Going to watch "Just like heaven" with my sister tomorrow at Bugis and have sushi. This is the life.

It's just too freaking hot.

I'm going to KL soon. Whooopee! But it's gonna be hotter. Dang.

shit happens

2005-11-11T01:00:00.000+11:00

SHIT happens

Sometimes I want to stab myself.

I keep saying "if only I had..." when it's too late.

I have so many regrets.

They say that if you have regrets, it means you haven't learnt anything from it.

I beg to differ.

It just means you are reflecting on your past and stabbing yourself for it.

Sometimes you would love to move on but you can't. Your mind doesn't allow it.

I wish I could turn back time and make everything right.

But I can't and that frustrates me.

They say "that would make you learn from your mistakes". It doesn't help. That's not my silver lining.

They say "you can't do anything about it anyway. Just move on." Easier said than done. It's because you can't do anything about it that hurts the most.

Now I understand why people love to have control of the situation. Because with control comes power and anything you want goes your way instead of you being pushed where the tide takes you, even if you don't like where you're going.

They say "don't think about it already, it won't help." Easier said than done. I would love to stop thinking but my mind control's my heart and emotions. I wish I was the kind of person who could let things go easily. Maybe then it wouldn't hurt so much.

Maybe.

I wish the world would end soon so that I don't have to feel so much pain.

Someone's been cursing me. I've been down on my luck this whole year.

God where are you? Can you hear me? Help!! *waves hand in the air*

I'm going back tomorrow. Even that's not a silver enough lining.

??

2005-11-07T09:20:00.000+11:00

??

It's 9:15am. I dragged myself out of bed cursing and swearing. What am I doing awake? I should be in bed sleeping till the afternoon. Was supposed to go out with Mich today but she's not feeling well, poor thing. That's why I'm up so early. If she had called me 15mins earlier I would have gone back to sleep. But once I bathe there's no way I'm getting back into bed. It's just a quirk of mine (Michy I do not blame you at all). I believe this is God's way of telling me to get up and do something. Do what? *shrugs* It's crap because now that exams are over I sleep later, because there's really no reason to sleep at all. I have no work to do. I'm not tired. All I do is knit and have fun.

I am exhausted though, from the exams but even that isn't enough to get me sleeping. This is painfully ironic. Now that I have the time, I don't have to study for exams. That's life eh. Moreover, it's too freaking hot to sleep now. I keep waking up in the middle of the night because I'm tossing and turning from the heat.

Another few days before I go back. Then I fly away for the whole of December. Then I start working from Jan till I go back I expect. Some hols eh. Before I know it it'll be 2006 first sem again and the whole freaking cycle repeats itself. 4th year. I'm getting old.

Knitting is a painful thing. It requires a lot, let me tell you, A LOT of patience and concentration. It is far, far worse than cross stitch. Either that or it's because I haven't learnt how to knit properly, that's why there is no room for error. I shall perservere.

My eyes are closing. Maybe I will go back to sleep after all. My whole body is aching. Neh better not. Going to check on the girls. Ta~

Sweet relief of freedom

2005-11-05T12:04:00.000+11:00

Sweet relief of freedom

Whoohoo!! Exams are over! *let's boogie, let's party!!* Somehow weirdly enough, my celebration lasted for a grand total of 5 minutes which saw me jumping up and down like a maniac in Caulfield, but that was it. I think the reality of it hasn't hit me yet. It still feels the same like any other lazy Saturday. Now, when I don't have anything to study, I feel...how to say...lost? Like there's something I should be doing but I'm not. On the other hand, I have tons of things to do. I have to clean my room and clear it from all the crap that's been piling up. I have to do my knitting, which will never finish because I just keep cutting it and starting all over again. Knitting is very different from cross-stitch. It needs consistency. Your tension must be consistent or else you will have a holey scarf. It's really frustrating sometimes. I guess when you get the hang of it, it'll be much better. Now because of my obsessive compulsive disorder to make everything perfect, I will not have much success with knitting. I'm turning into Syl. ARGH!

I should be reading. There's the Chronicles of Narnia that I want to read before the movie comes out (for once), and Pride and Prejudice. I remember my mom telling me years ago that I should read Pride and Prejudice and I just flung it aside until the movie came out. Somehow after watching the movies, the books all make sense. Someone should also recommend me a good chinese book. I haven't read a good one in ages. And don't tell me to read My Fair Princess because I've read the whole set (which gave me a headache) or any of that Qiong Yao crap. Too drama mama.

I have to pack away all the notes from this year so that the new books can come in. I have to start packing my luggage soon. I can't believe I'm going back. Time flies doesn't it? It seems like yesterday I just came back and was going skiiing. Very soon you'll see me blogging a post which says welcome 2006! Argh. Nonono time wait for meeeee...

Isn't it just stupid how you crave to sleep when you're studying, yet when exams are over, you just can't make yourself sleep? I slept a grand total of 6 hrs last night. My body refused to be forced back to sleep. *sigh* Stupid stupid stupid.

Other people are still having exams. It's not much fun when you are partying and others are still slogging away. 4 mths. 4 mths of hols!! Imagine that. My brains will start to rust again.

It's bloody hot now. I probably will be melting when I go home. Sometimes it's so hot I can't breathe. Never mind, there's always air-con.

Till next time peeps, toodles~

Good luck and God bless to everyone who still has exams!!!

weird

2005-11-01T21:12:00.000+11:00

Weird

It's weird when you go home and take no interest whatsoever in listening to Mandarin radio stations at all, yet when you're in Melbourne listening to Chinese songs on the local radio station you get all excited and happy.

It's weird when people who once wanted to grow up quickly, now wish they could stay young forever.

It's weird when you haven't listened to a song in ages and suddenly out of no where, feel like listening to it again...and then it brings back good ol' memories.

It's weird that some people say one thing and mean another.

It's weird that when I'm back home, I wish I was in Melboure. Yet when I'm in Melbourne, I wish I was back home.

It's weird that the grass is always greener on the other side.

Ahhh the mysteries of life.

dear God

2005-10-30T18:32:00.000+11:00

Dear God,

Life is a constant struggle. True, it brings many happy moments in life, yet there is always this great effort to fight to survive in this dog-eat-dog world. I’m still trying to understand the rationale of this great creation of yours called life and the world.

I’m sorry I’ve been ungrateful. You gave me life yet I take it for granted and sometimes (actually most), I wish I never had this gift you blessed upon me. I feel like no one in a mass of humans trying to live from day to day. What is it all for in the end? I wish you were here to answer my questions and enlighten me. No human will be able to explain it like you will.

Yet why do I go in search of these answers? Even after knowing, will they provide me with a satisfaction that I can then live my life in a better way? What am I hoping for?

Ironically, sometimes I actually fear death (just sometimes). I fear death because it will separate me from my loved ones, nothing else. Sometimes I wish I can hang on to them forever. But no one is forever but you, Lord.

Is life a lesson? Would we actually learn from it? Why do we need to learn from it?

They say we were created to speak your name and spread your word. Is that true? Was that what you created us for?

There are so many questions that need to be answered, like, why did you create me? Why is this life not fair? Why do some people have gold taps in their bathrooms whilst others are struggling and wondering when their next meal will be? Why am I hungry all the time? Maybe I’m not searching in the correct places. Then again, how would I know where the correct places are?

If I can’t trace your hand I will trust your heart.

Thank you for your blessings this year. I know I’ve been complaining a whole lot but just ignore me, it’s a habit I’ve had since young. I’m willing to exchange my soft toys with you if next year will be a better year.

I’m going to be 21 soon. Growing up is a pain. Because now you have to look after yourself and maybe others. I don’t like responsibility. Never did. Responsibility should only be given to people who are responsible. Like Mich or Juice. Not me.

I’m also still trying to understand myself. Sometimes I feel that people don’t appreciate me. That makes me feel sad. I also care too much about what other people say and think. I wish I didn’t. I’ve been working on it but it doesn’t seem to be changing. Can you help me? It’s this over-sensitiveness of mine. It’s gone wonky. I have issues, but then again, who doesn’t?

Thanks for taking time to listen as you always do.

Cheers mate,
Yin

Exams

2005-10-29T21:38:00.000+10:00

Happiness soon

Yay finished my contrat exam. Hopefully I'll never ever have to study it again. Next up is Torts. Not too bad but may not have enough time. Hiahz. Anyway still got long time more so no need to panic. Yet. Haha. After that will be 3.5 mths of pure freedom. WOO!!! Can't wait.

ramblings

2005-10-25T18:28:00.000+10:00

Ramblings

Exams are drawing nearer. 2 more days. Ugh. Time’s a ticking. Somehow I know I’m doomed but I am not feeling the stress yet. I’m still very calm. This is bad. 3.5 hour paper. 4 major questions. Write until go mad. Nooooooo…Contract. Damn you. You are the bain of my life. The thorn in my flesh. Hiahz. I’m going to bash the person who invented exams.

Sorry…just needed to whinge and whine for abit. Hiahz. That’s what exams do to you. They turn a perfectly good life into one of stress and sleeplessness.

On a lighter note, we celebrated Michelle’s birthday 3 days ago. It was major fun. It’s fun when you surprise people and they are so unaware of it. And then when they open up your presents, priceless. It started off with Michy treating us to steamboat dinner. Great fun. I always have fun when we have steamboat. Has a very homely feeling. Then we all pretended to go back and sleep. Michy was obviously already tired by 11pm so she went back to sleep as well. Then one by one, everyone came back into my room to prepare for the surprise. At 12am, Felicia went to knock on Michy’s door pretending to ask for her spare key. It took Michy ages to open it lah! She was sound asleep and was so blur when she finally woke up. Then we arrived at her door with the cake and started singing happy birthday! Wahahaha!! You should have seen the look on her face!! And she was in her pyjamas!!! HAHA!!

I thought I’d just say something about the Vietnamese Australian citizen dude that got caught for drug trafficking in Singapore and is going to be hanged soon. I can’t say that I can give a non-biased opinion about this, but the Aussies can’t either. I read a letter in the forum of the paper that they can boycott Singapore? Not go to Singapore anymore and not use their services? And they want to pressurize Singapore into not having capital punishment anymore? Reminds me of the Michael Fay case a few years ago as well as the Shapelle (however you spell her name) Colby case at the moment. Please. GROW FREAKING UP. He committed an offence which is punishable by death in Singapore. If he was smart enough he wouldn’t have done it, especially in Singapore. Moreover, please respect Singapore laws. What we do there, even if it is what you think (barbaric and cruel), it is still our laws. That’s what you get for breaking the law. Moreover, it’s for drugs. Singapore doesn’t sentence you to capital punishment unless it’s extremely serious. Don’t you ever think why we have such strict laws? Why our country’s crime rate is so low? Don’t compare us to Australia or Malaysia. We are not a part of anywhere else. You can’t get everything you want but that’s just part of life. Stop whining.

leave me alone

2005-10-22T16:54:00.000+10:00

Leave me alone

she writes well

2005-10-21T23:29:00.000+10:00

http://mellahoney.blogspot.com/

She writes well

Blood donors

2005-10-20T13:19:00.000+10:00

Blood donors

Yay! We're officially blood donors...

I thought it was going to be painful and it was! But apparently 1 packet of our blood can save 3 people's lives. I feel good now wahhaha!! It was a good experience and our before 21 plan. I may do it regularly after this.

My mom got a promotion! Very proud and happy for her. At least something good has come out from this horrid year.

Exams are in a week's time. Good luck to everyone!! It's the time of the year again. In approximately 3 weeks I will be home. Home sweet freaking warm home. Who cares. It's still home. That's where my heart is.

Going to go mug now. Cheers!

oct

2005-10-16T13:10:00.000+10:00

Month of Birthdays

I tell you...Feb and Oct are THE months for birthdays. These 2 months are the months out of the whole year which I know the most people who have birthdays (errr ok doesn't quite sound right but you understand).

Anywho, been busy busy busy. Tomorrow is the start of week 13 and the week after is exam week already. NOOOO!!!! Damn you exams!!! *shakes fist* Still have a test and another essay and have to start pia-ing like crazy. Contract sucks big time. Damn you Contract!!! *shakes fist* I can't believe this year is going to end soon. Truth be told, I am sooo looking forward to next year. Excited about the new units I'm going to be doing, and a fresh, brand new start. So 2005 get out of the way!!!

It's Spring. Like really Spring. It was supposed to come beginning of Sep but the weather is kindda slow and lagging. Thank God cuz although I do like sun, I'm not too sure about the heat. As long as it's cool I don't mind. Thinking about the heat and mozzies in Singapore just makes me cringe.

Watched Pride and Prejudice yesterday. Good movie. I'm going to read the book. Soon. After I read the Chronicles of Narnia. I was toking to my mom about Pride and Prejudice last night because she got free tickets to watch it. This is how it went:

Ma: I think Kiera Knightly is so pretty and Mr. Darcy is so good looking.

Me: Yah they are. But Mr. Darcy is like Mopy Dick. He mopes around too much.

Ma: Don't use the word "dick", I don't like it.

Me: Moby Dick was a guy's name. Some book right?

Ma: *horrified* Moby Dick was a WHALE!!! Some lit student you are!!

Me: *what the...who names a whale Moby DICK!!?* Anyway, I didn't like the ending. Too sudden.

Ma: Sudden? I loved it! It was so romantic!

Me: *stunned* How can an old man talking to himself be romantic??!

Ma: What old man? It ended with them talking and kissing with a romantic scene at the balcony.

Me: WHAT??!?!?!

Turns out the cinema cut the ending of the movie off. I have no idea why. That's why when it ended we were all like, "That's it?!" Argh cheat my $$$!!!

Have a good weekend you all.

tag

2005-10-11T19:40:00.000+10:00

Tag Tag Tag

Ten years ago I was...

In Primary 4, having fun, being the nosiest in class. Yet at the same time being stressed because it was streaming year.

Five years ago I was...

In sec. 3, also having fun, crazy about a1, not worrying about O levels yet.

One year ago I was...

In 2nd year at uni, still having fun. Probably at this time stressing over exams.

Yesterday I was...

Having fun again. Went out for dinner and shopping with the girls. Worrying about assignment due soon.

3 snacks I enjoy

1. Fruit
2. Ice cream
3. Twisties bag of bones

5 songs I know all the words to...

I know about 500 if you ask me. But oh well.

1. Because of you by Kelly Clarkson
2. Everytime by a1
3. bei ying by K One
4. Inside your heaven by Carrie Underwood
5. Fly away by Corrine May
6. Twinkle twinkle little star (bonus)

5 things I would do with a 100 million dollars...

1. Donate half of it to charity (I really will. Really. Really lah!)
2. Buy my parents everything they want.
3. Buy my siblings everything they want.
4. Buy me and Kong Wen everything we want.
5. Buy my friends everything they want.

5 bad habits...

I have none. They are all good in my opinion. They build character. So there.

5 biggest joys...

1. God
2. Family
3. Kong Wen
4. Friends
5. Money

5 places I would runaway to...

Huh then next time everyone will know where I am. Well, I'm in Michy's room if anyone needs me.

5 things I would never wear

1. Animal fur
2. I would wear anything else, some just not in public. Muahahha.

5 favourite tv shows...

1. All my 5566, K One shows
2. Everybody Loves Raymond
3. Desperate Housewives
4. Grey's Anatomy
5. wan quan yu le

5 fictional characters I would date...

1. Qing Tian in zi jin zi dian
2. Tai Zi in MVP qing ren
3. Duan Yu Qiao in ge dou tian wang
4. Xu Zi Qian in wang zi bian qing wa
5. You Ya Yu in xi jie shao nian

Thanks a lot to Michelle for making me do this boliao tag.

nanana

2005-10-08T16:06:00.000+10:00

nanana

I have so much work to do. This is bad. I foresee a majorly stressful examination period. I am doomed. 19 days. Freak. I need another miracle!!

On the other hand, somehow or other I always manage to pull through (by the grace of God almighty).

I don't understand why people have to play music all the time, everytime. I hate it. I hate it when I'm talking to someone and there's music playing in the foreground. I used to have a friend who came over to my house sometimes and all she wanted to do was to blast 93.3FM whilst I was trying to discuss something with her. I love the quiet. Music is for times when you are alone. Not when you have company. I think that is plain rude. I think when you are talking to someone you focus on what they are talking about and not the music that's playing in the background. It's so noisy! I can't stand it. But that's just what I think.

Back to reading one of the most boring lit books in the world. I don't understand how these books can win awards when they are so blatantly boring. They actually created a unit this year which focuses on fantasy fiction and it's damn fun! Just by glancing at the titles of the books, you know you are going to have a good time. They are doing Harry Potter (first book), Alice in Wonderland and many more. And the teacher is someone whom I truly like. Too bad it's only for first years.

Hiahz. I shall finish reading it today by hook or by crook. Laters~

funny

2005-10-08T15:56:00.000+10:00

Funny lyrics, catchy tune

Ben Lee - Catch my Disease

My head is a box full of nothing
and that's the way I like it
My garden's a secret compartment
and that's the way I like it
and that's the way I like it
Your body's a dream that turns violent
and that's the way I like it
and that's the way I like it
The winter is long in the city
and that's the way I like it
So please baby please
Open your heart
Catch my disease
I was backstage in Pomonaand
that's the way I like it
She drank beer with coca-cola
and that's the way I like it
and that's the way I like it
She told me about the winds from Santa Anna
and that's the way I like it
and that's the way I like it
She told me she loved me like fireworks
and that's the way I like itSo please baby please
Open your eyes
Catch my diseaseSo please (PLEASE!) baby please
Come on Catch my disease Catch itNa na na na na na na na na
They play Good Charlotte on the radio
and that's the way I like it
They play Sleepy Jackson on the radio
and that's the way I like it and that's the way I like it
I hear Beyonce on the radio
and that's the way I like it
cos that's the way I like it
and they play me on the radio (whoo!) and that's the way I like it
So please baby please
Open your heart and catch my disease
So please baby please
Come on Catch my disease(catch my disease)
nanananananananana(catch my disease)
nanananananananana(catch my disease)
nanananananananana(catch my disease)

Home

2005-10-07T18:33:00.000+10:00

Michael Buble - Home

Another summer day
Is come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
Mmmmmmmm
Maybe surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh I miss you, you know
And I've been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two“I'm fine baby, how are you?”
Well I would send them but I know that it's just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that
Another aerorplane
Another sunny place
I'm lucky I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I've got to go home
Let me go home
I'm just too far from where you are
I wanna come home
And I feel just like I'm living someone else's life
It's like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
But this was not your dream
But you always believe in me
Another winter day has come
And gone away
And even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home
And I'm surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel alone
Oh, let me go home
Oh, I miss you, you know
Let me go home
I've had my run
Baby, I'm done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It will all right
I'll be home tonight
I'm coming back home

argh

2005-10-06T13:02:00.000+10:00

argh

Just finished editting a friend's law essay which was 8300 words long. My eyes going sengeh (however u spell it I dun care) already. How people can write such long essays amaze me. But most of it were long direct quotes from elsewhere so I dun feel so amazed haha. My longest was only 3000 words and that was already a struggle. People who do long thesis writing, I take my hat off to you.

Had a horrific dream yesterday morning. It's still haunting me. I'm still traumatized. Ugh.

Exactly 3 weeks to exams. Glad I only have 2 papers. Much to the dirty looks of the rest. I'm graduating at the end of this sem! My first degree! Before 21!! How exciting! Can't wait for hols. Then on to my 2nd degree. Sounds exciting but people warn me that it is so tough, half of the people drop out by then. *ugh* How encouraging.

Going to consolidate this weekend. Hopefully will get something done. Ta~

Interview with God

2005-10-04T18:02:00.000+10:00

Interview with God

http://www.theinterviewwithgod.com/popup-frame.html

When watching this I smiled. I teared. I felt sad yet happy. You must turn on your computer's sound and watch and hear the music at the same time. Thanks Peg, you made my day :)

bitches

2005-10-03T20:46:00.000+10:00

WTH

What is up with these bitches? Everywhere I go I meet them. They are everywhere. They sit behind you during lectures, you see them on the street, you hear about them, you see them around uni etc. They talk. They talk about how inadequate others are compared to them. They talk about whose clothes don't match their shoes. They look down at others with the tip of their noses. They talk about their oh-so-rich parents. They talk about how smart they think they are. They talk with their phony accents and screwed up noses. They gossip.

I've f*cking had it with them. They are breathing my air. They invade my sound waves. They are an eye sore.

If you don't want to listen during lecture - GET THE F*CK OUT. I don't care if your daddy has bought you a new phone. I don't care if you've got a manicure. I don't care if that cute guy is dating an ugly witch. BUT I CARE IF YOU SPEAK SO LOUDLY THE WHOLE WORLD CAN HEAR YOU AND NOT THE LECTURER!!! *fumes* I have tolerated it time and time again. But the next time you do it - NO MORE NICE ME.

For the rest of the bitches: GET OUT OF MY SIGHT.

They say it takes one to know one. I say that is BULL SHIT.

to...

2005-10-02T21:01:00.000+10:00

To...

To those girls who love/like that someone and wishes for a relationship yet don't want to spoil the friendship by professing your love and are stuck...

"If you love somebody and you are passionate about somebody, and if the person doesn't reciprocate, then if you mope endlessly, it's being selfish, it's not love...If you're really committed to the idea of loving that somebody, then you should try to win him/her over."

Thank you Amy for finally putting it in words, even if it was from someone else.

Desperate houseflies part II

2005-10-01T17:03:00.000+10:00

Desperate houseflies part II

Amy hollars to Michelle.
Michelle hollars to me.
We go down to Amy's room.
She's screaming in a corner holding a bit of newspaper.
It is big, black, fat and hairy.
We thwack the fly 6 times before it finally dies.
Michelle brings it's half mangled body out to throw.
Amy picks the other half up with a tissue, screaming.
Amy screams again.
The fly's friend is in 'da house.
Why does Amy's room attract flies.
She may be the queen fly.
This one is harder to find.
Michelle points at Amy's legs.
Amy starts doing a mad dance, hopping around and smacking her legs.
We thank God Frank is not there to watch.
Michelle twacks it 3 times before it is dead.
She takes it out with the last bit of paper.
Amy breathes again.

handbells

2005-09-30T22:55:00.000+10:00

Handbells

I was blog surfing (a rare thing I do unless I am feeling extremely bored) and came across this girl's blog. She was talking about handbells and about her conductress. Coincidentally, she is from my secondary school as well, since there are so few Singaporean schools that actually have handbells as a CCA. It brought back memories. I didn't think I would miss it that much. I do.

I remember the times I would look forward to Tuesdays because there was practice. Practice gave me a reason to smile. This was one of the very few things I actually felt passionate about and did for myself and actually saw it through and stuck with it till I finished. I was one of the few people who disliked music. Music as in piano and theory and stuff. The rest of my handbell peers were gifted. They could memorise scores quickly and easily without much effort. I, on the other hand, had to practise and practise till I got them right. I wasn't much of a sight-reader. I couldn't keep time. I was lost most of the time. But I had the passion. Something that not everyone there had. Maybe that's what kept me going.

I have no idea why I liked it so much. Maybe because it is uncommon. Maybe because the music produced is so beautiful. Not many people understand and appreciate the work behind the music. It takes hours of gruelling practice to be able to perform a near-perfect piece. Even more so than solo performances because there is no solo in handbells. Everything played is teamwork. I wanted to smash the head of a granny who once watched our performance and in the middle of it, rudely began shouting at the top of her voice that we sounded like the ice cream man. The odacity of it all.

It wasn't easy. I copped a lot of crap from my seniors and conductress during those 3 years. They couldn't tolerate my slowness - give me a break, not everyone is as perfect as you people are. The worst of it all was that they thought I was just plain lazy - something I took offence to because I put in so much effort and they couldn't, or wouldn't see it. But I wouldn't allow anything to get in my way of me and my precious handbells. I was willing to do anything to remain there. I went carolling (something that few people do because it eats into their holidays) because I thought extra practice would help me prepare for SYF the following year. It was tough but it was fun.

No one understood my passion for it. Even I didn't. I just knew it existed. People thought I was crazy. It's not like sports. Sports is fun. Standing in a room ringing bells all day is not fun. Well at least my sister appreciates it. I'm glad she took it up in secondary school as well. She's copping a lot from her seniors and conductress as well but the outcome is all the more rewarding.

I can say that one of the best days of my life was when we got the gold for SYF. It was rewarding. That was the first time I remember how it felt like to work hard for something and reaping the rewards. It was truly awesome. Sad to say it did not last, and before I knew it, my 3 years of handbelling came to an end when I got too old for secondary school.

If I had a chance to do it in the future I would, without a doubt agree. I've become rusty because I haven't been playing the piano in 4 years but with hard work and passion, I'm sure I will get through. However at the moment, a chance hasn't passed by me yet. Or maybe I should look for it?

dare u to move

2005-09-29T20:24:00.000+10:00

Dare you to move (Switchfoot)

Welcome to the planet
Welcome to existence

Everyone's here
Everyone's here

Everybody's watching you now
Everybody waits for you now

What happens next?
What happens next?

I dare you to move
I dare you to move
I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor
I dare you to move
I dare you to move
Like today never happened
Today never happened before

Welcome to the fallout
Welcome to resistance

The tension is here
The tension is here

Between who you are and who you could be
Between how it is and how it should be

I dare you to move
I dare you to move
I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor
I dare you to move
I dare you to move
Like today never happened
Today never happened

Maybe redemption has stories to tell
Maybe forgiveness is right where you fell
Where can you run to escape from yourself?
Where you gonna go?
Where you gonna go?
Salvation is here

I dare you to move
I dare you to move
I dare you to lift yourself
Lift yourself up off the floor
I dare you to move
I dare you to move
Like today never happened
Today never happened
Today never happened
Today never happened before

God gave me my rainbow

2005-09-29T13:36:00.000+10:00

God gave me my rainbow

God has answered my prayers. It's a miracle. Praise Him. He has given me my rainbow, after weeks of rain. Everything is better now because I have my Lord. I am so grateful.

Thank you Juice, who told me that I've already won before I even began. Thanks to all the people who have been praying for me. You are great. God is great.

save my feet

2005-09-27T20:16:00.000+10:00

Save my feet

Been out from 9:30am till 7:45pm today. In the city. My feet are gone case. Just gone. *groans in pain* I need to go for a massage. Ugh.

Now I have to clean my kitchen because my new sink is done. Hiahz.

I bought a pair of Nike shoes today for $50 at the Nike factory outlet. Quite good. That's about it though. And a teapot cuz it looked so cute.

I just heard 5566's new song "hao jiu bu jian" on radio. So happy! At first when I heard their 3rd album I didn't really like it but it takes a few listens before you begin to find the songs catchy and nice. I miss them.

argh so tired. Got to go uni tmr somemore. Got so much work to do somemore. From tomorrow it's going to be study time. Diediediediedie...

Ciao till later~

Dead tired

2005-09-27T01:07:00.000+10:00

Dead tired

*groanz* I'm so tired. Got up at 8 plus am today and was out till 11pm. Ugh. Sore. Feet ache. Exhausted. Watched "Howl's Moving Castle" and "Wallace and Gromit". Hilarious. Both were great. Thoroughly enjoyed the company.

Going down to the city tomorrow. Double ugh. I wish they would get my sink over and done with quick so that I don't have to live in this mess. By the way Amy, Kong Wen's sink and room had no problem. No leaking or anything whatsoever. Hopefully mine will be ok as well.

Going to sleep now. ZZzzzzzz...

Kids

2005-09-25T19:33:00.000+10:00

Poor kids

I was just watching Aussie's braniest Kid...Those kids are so smart...They know almost everything. And I think it's so stressful...To answer as many questions as you can as quickly as possible without thinking. This Chinese boy won (surprise surprise) but he was the dark horse cuz he actually was not doing very well in the first 2 rounds. So yea..he surprised us. But another boy was so disappointed he didn't win he actually cried there and then on stage. Poor fella. The others really looked disappointed as well. Why do they put kids thru this. They are only like 11 or 12. It's so stressful and competitive. I wonder what we're teaching them. hiahz.

rottin away

2005-09-25T18:02:00.000+10:00

Rottin away

Hullo peoplez...I just realised I became all holy moly in my 2nd last post so for people who aren't so holy moly, don't take much notice of it. Haha..today Syl and I did a really stupiak thing. We ran all the way to the bus stop to go yum cha and then realised that it was fully booked so we couldn't get in. So we decided to go across to Maccas (Macdonald's) and have lunch instead. Then because the bus only comes once in an hour, we decided to walk back. And on the way we saw this huge nursery and decided to pop in for a look. They have the most gorgeous orchids I tell you. They were huge!! The pot was huge (the whole plant was nearly as tall as I am) and the flowers were huge but they were so beautiful they were perfect. Just gorgeous. Too bad we didn't have cameras. Then as we were walking out, the bus zoomed past us!! And the buses only come once an hour on Sundays, so yea, we had to walk all the way back. Didn't keep track of the time but it was pretty long. Think it was about an hour. Haha.

I catch myself doing the weirdest things nowadays. Things that I would never try or do in the past. Spontaneity is my middle name. It is Sylvia's first name now.

They are going to build us a bigger sink tomorrow. Now I have to clear the table top in my kitchen. Bah. I have so many things. Where am I going to put them. Geeze. I'm actually wondering what I'm going to do with all my stuff when I finally leave this place and go back. I have too many things. My family will be disgusted with me if they ever come and see my room. It's actually much better equipped than my room at home *lol*.

Going to continue rotting now. I was reading my lit book just now and falling asleep. They should only allow people to write interesting books. Best of all, books that I find interesting, like Harry Potter. I can't believe this is the 5th time I'm trying to read it and still can't manage to get thru it. It's only 200 pages yet it feels so long. Ugh. I'm only at page 56. Ugh. Even that took like, a whole hour. Hiahz. Lit can be so fun yet so dull at the same time.

Till next time...ta~

Frog prince

2005-09-24T23:17:00.000+10:00

Frog prince

Wahhhh I love Wang Shao Wei!!! He's damn nice in "wang zi bian qing wa"!! ARGH!!! Hiahz, if there were more men like him or his character in the show (Xu Zi Qian) around in this world, this world would be a much better place.

I just had to say that. Hee~

Amazing Lord

2005-09-24T16:09:00.000+10:00

Amazing Lord

I was feeling down and decided to seek the Lord for comfort. I opened the bible and flipped to a random page as usual. My eyes fell on Jeremiah 29:13 - "And you will seek Me and find Me, when you search for Me with all your heart."

Awhile ago I was telling Juice and Josie that I want to find God so much, to feel more of His love and to connect with Him. But I didn't know how to do it. Or I didn't know what more I could do to get it. After reading this, I guess I'm not searching for Him with all my heart. I'm holding back and I don't know why. Maybe I'm afraid. But I don't know why. When I prayed for an answer, I flipped open the bible again and my eyes fell on Matthew 21:22 - "And whatever things you ask in prayer, believing, you will receive." I will continue praying until something happens, or until I find my answer.

When I said my life has no meaning, they told me that we exist for the sole purpose of spreading the Lord's word. When I have God, my life has meaning.

The road towards the exams from now on will become rough and tough. But whatever may come I will be prepared for it. For whatever I do my Lord will be watching. He will protect me from harm. He is my saviour. He will lead me to salvation.

Awhile ago I was talking to Amy and Sylvia about religion. Amy said "What if whatever you believe in is not real? What if you are believing blindly?" I thought about it. And there is actually very little to prove that God is real. That God is there. Besides maybe that they found Noah's ark and the stone of the 10 commandments. Poach also said that there is no actual way of proving His existence unless you feel it for yourself - For example, a life threatening event etc. But I feel it. Even though I haven't had a life threatening event, or something to that extent...but I feel His love. It's not a self-fufilling prophecy. I know He's there. But how do I get others to feel the same way? The day after our conversation I saw a rainbow. That reminded me of Him and his promise. It reminded me that He's still there. That nothing can shake my faith. And I feel so privileged and thankful that I know Him.

Sometimes you get a lot of rain, before God gives you your rainbow. But He will give it to you. When He feels the time is right. You just have to trust and believe and have faith that He will.

"You reap what you sow" ~www.ziggyzone.com

hols r here

2005-09-22T12:25:00.000+10:00

Hols are here!!

Whoopee!! Hols are here! I finally get a break. Geeze. Actually, what hols? There’s so much work to be done and so little time. Hiahz.

Went to dinner with Michy and Syl at Rachel’s house. It was Cheryl’s whole cell group plus a few other people. Felt pretty good because they were friendly and nice and mostly Singaporean and Malaysian. We had steamboat (I ate a snail!! It tastes like soil! YUCKS!!) and after that we sat around and played Pictionary and Taboo. Quite fun! Haven’t played these games in awhile. They were practising for a worship session as well and it brought back memories in secondary school where we would have chapel and just sing.

After we came back, Syl and I started knitting. I’ve always wanted to learn knitting since I started cross-stitch (and that was like 13 years ago) but never got around to doing it. Since Amy just picked it up we thought it might be fun to do it as well. It’s actually a little complicated in the beginning but once you get the hang of it, it’s pretty automatic. I can even watch tv and knit at the same time now. Just that you have to be very careful at all times because once the knitting falls off the needle, you probably have to restart again. Which is very frustrating. I understand because I do cross-stich and once you’ve done 1 stitch wrong, you gotta go back and unpick the whole thing. Knitting is more complex because you can’t just cover the mistakes up like cross-stitch. I guess professionals can but beginners like me have no idea how to undo the mistakes. I have no idea what I’m knitting now but it may be a scarf for my soft toy haha! It’s a good cure for insomnia because after awhile you get so tired you fall asleep really quickly.

So tired. Going to go to lunch. Have a good hols!!

go to hell

2005-09-19T20:58:00.000+10:00

Go to hell

I don’t freaking understand why people are always late on me. I hate it even more when they are late and don’t even freaking bother to call. This morning I had to wake up early and spent 2 wasted hours in uni because my negotiation partner arranged to meet me but later didn’t. We were supposed to meet at 10am but I waited till 10:20am and no sign of her. So I called her. But she didn’t pick up. Then I msged her. And she msged back saying that her car had broke down and she couldn’t make it. So we had to reschedule it to 4pm. How convenient eh? I want to give her the benefit of the doubt but well…Why should I? Anyway it doesn’t matter what reason it was, she didn’t turn up. Freaking hell. I hate it when people are late. Especially when I make an effort to be on time so that they don’t have to wait. Freak. Freak. Freak.

I’m so tired. Tired from work that I haven’t even started yet. Tired of life. Tired of living. Exhausted. Irritated by stupid, idiotic people. Amy’s zero tolerance level is contagious. I’ll say it as it is and not care about your feelings. I’ll tell you the truth. I’ll say it to your face. If you don’t like it, well…live with it. Life is too short to get upset and angry over stupid people. I have no time for them.

Call me a bitch if you want. But there’s a limit to everything, especially my tolerance. If you have blatant disregard for my feelings why should I care about yours? Go to hell. And stay there.

rainbow

2005-09-17T18:37:00.000+10:00

God's promise

Yesterday whilst walking back with Michelle, we saw a rainbow.

It's times like these when we need to remember God's promise to us and remember that He's there with us always, through thick and thin.

Faith is a miraculous thing. It keeps us going even when times are rough.

Thanks to Mich for the pictures.

collide

2005-09-17T13:51:00.000+10:00

Collide (Howie Day)

The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find You and I collide

I'm quiet you know
You make a frist impression
I've found I'm scared to know
I'm always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find You and I collide

Mooncake fest

2005-09-17T13:22:00.000+10:00

Mooncake fest

Last night we went to this mooncake fest celebration thing which was held in uni. Dinner, mooncake and performances. Some of the singers were pretty good (they sang David Tao songs and one of them tried to do a sad rendition of David's ABC slang but couldn't make it) and we even had one guy play the er hu really well.

Is it just me or am I missing home on this fateful festival? I remember how we used to be so excited buying lanterns (thinking back, all the gross plastic electric ones were so fakeo) as kids. Ma would buy a huge pomelo and lotsa different mooncakes (my fave is the one at Crown Prince hotel...the fried one with yam filling. Damn shiok.) And we'll sit around and gaze at the moon and drink Chinese tea. So fun.

Now's still the same I guess. I mean, my friends and I still sit around and drink Chinese tea (courtesy of Amy), eat mooncake (courtesy of Michelle) and sing karaoke (courtesy of Sylvia *lol*), but of course your family is not there. But then comes the poem "chuang qian ming yue guang" (I know it's not called that but I forgot haha.) It doesn't matter where you are, but as long as you look at the moon and remember that your family is looking at the very same moon as well, you'll feel their presence.

To everyone out there, happy mooncake festival!!

names to avoid

2005-09-14T17:47:00.000+10:00

Names to avoid for your kid (As requested by Amy)

1) Monica Cheng (in Hokkien) - touching your buttocks

2) Michael Tan (in Cantonese) - selling eggs

3) Lucy Liaw (in Hokkien) - You are dead

4) Anne Chin (in Mandarin) - Keep quiet

5) Carl Chng (in Hokkien) - Buttock

6) Carmen Teng (in Hokkien) - Leg hair long

7) Corrine Tai (in Hokkien) - Poor fellow

8) Faye Chen (in Mandarin) - Dusty

9) Henry Mah (in Mandarin) - Hate your mum

10) Henry Tan (in Hokkien) - Let you wait

11) Jane Tan (in Mandarin) - Fried egg

12) Judy Soo (in Mandarin) - Fated to lose

13) Leslie Tong (in Mandarin) - Rubbish bin

14) Nelson Chong (in Mandarin) - Worms-infested bird

15) Nelson Tan (in Mandarin) - Bird laying eggs

16) Paul Chan (in Cantonese) - Bankrupt

the flesh rules

2005-09-11T18:42:00.000+10:00

The flesh rules

I feel like I'm sinking. There's a rope for me to pull which would help me get out of this mess but I'm not taking hold of it even though I see it. I deliberately allow myself to sink deeper and deeper even though I know I need desperately to take hold of the rope because I know that if I take hold of it, I will have to spend time and effort climbing out so I'd much rather sit back and relax and SINK. It's a conflict between the mind and body. The mind is willing but the flesh is weak. The flesh rules eventually. How sad.

Another thing I realised is that when you are in a predicament, just think of the advice you would give to someone in that same situation as you, then apply it to yourself. Very often the answer is straighforward, simple and obvious, just that the mind refuses to listen or accept that answer.

I am going to rot now. Week 9 starts tomorrow. Ta~

what am I doing

2005-09-08T13:08:00.000+10:00

What am I doing.

I'm a rotten friend, girlfriend, daughter and sister. I'm sorry. I'm sorry I haven't been there for you when you needed a listening ear or a helping hand. I'm sorry I was so self-absorbed that I didn't realise what was going around me. I'm sorry I've been selfish and self-centered. I'm sorry. Really.

Drug me

2005-09-07T19:18:00.000+10:00

Drug me

Yesh! Wednesday is over…finally. *sighz* I was extremely irritated today during lecture. I had a cup of bitter-strong mocha in the morning and that did it. I was bouncing off the walls during my entire lecture. I couldn’t sit still and was fidgety and on a high for 3 hours. *argh*

Moreover, can’t people just shut up??? I mean, it’s a freaking lecture damn it. You go in to listen to the lecturer. It’s like a movie. You don’t talk during a movie. You don’t let your handphone ring during a movie. It’s the same freaking policy for lectures. It’s basic courtesy and proper upbringing. You DON’T SPEAK WHEN SOMEONE ELSE IS SPEAKING. I was in an extremely foul mood after I left my 2 hour Contract lecture. In the first place, the lecturer is already boring and doesn’t speak good English. 2nd place, I hate Contract. 3rd place it’s a 2 hour lecture. 4th place, I’m fidgety. I’m already trying my best to pay attention to every word the lecturer says and I DON’T NEED CONSTANT YAKKING GOING ALL AROUND ME!!! *ARGH!!!* If you don’t want to listen, get out. Selfish pigs.

I’m suffering because I don’t have anymore juice. I usually have either apple or orange juice in my fridge constantly but I’ve finished it all!! Looks like I have to drink water then. *gag* NOoooooooOoooo!!

Amy is coming back in 2 days. That was really fast. Time flies. It’s as if she’s only been gone yesterday. Weird. THAT MEANS IT’S GONNA BE WEEK 9 SOON. *double ARGH*

I have succeeded in correcting most of the things on my blog, thank God.

~whee..Peg! I'm watching "wang zi bian qing wa" at the moment. It's ok lah, not as nice as "ge dou" but Shao Wei is damn nice in there *swoons*!! Ming Dao cannot act for crap though. Summore play the lead. Yux. Lend you when I get back.

My heart is still beating faster than normal. Caffeine is not very good for you. *yikes* Probably won’t be able to sleep tonight. Oh well, better make full use of it I guess. Byeee…

argh

2005-09-07T11:27:00.000+10:00

argh

Stupid template...after changing it so many things can't work. *pooey* Well, just have to live with it I suppose.

Today in Literature class we were studying about a Japanese author and his short story and some Japanese culture and my tutor asked if I was Japanese. Eh, just because I'm the only Asian in the class doesn't make me any Asian.

I don't understand why people bite their nails. It's a disgusting habit (no offence to people who do though) and I hate seeing people do it. Today I sat next to this girl who was biting her nails. Usually I'm very tolerant with it because a few of my friends do it occasionally but this girl clearly had no nails left and was biting her skin off. Every single finger was a deep shade of red and it looked like they were about to bleed with her insistent chewing. I fled to the other side of the lecture theatre and sat there cringing for the next hour *shudder*.

I hate Wednesdays. Can't wait for it to be over. Another 4 hours. *pooey*

argh I am going to turn into a new leaf this week, to quote Amy.

I can't believe it's week 8. I had this horrified expression on my face for a few seconds whilst I took in the reality of it. I was still living in week 7. ARGH!! On the other hand, it's mid-sem hols in 2 weeks!! More like end sem hols. Can start planning what to do hiakhiak.

Sorry if I'm crapping. I'm in the com lab waiting for my next class. hiahz. Whywhywhy do my friends keep going through the same love problems. Why is it we can't just know who THE ONE is and fall in love with them and spare ourselves the torture of break ups and hurt and pain and the unknown??? Why are there no answers? I wish I knew...but there isn't even an answer to that.

I've been exposing myself to the gore of human bodies recently by watching shows such as "House" and "Grey's Anatomy". Gone were the boring days of E.R, here comes medical shows that are actually funny. The gross parts are really gross though. Don't eat whilst watching.

I can't stand it when people are late (my brother would comment lamely, "then sit it" *rolls eyeballs*). Why are they late most of the times. I hate to be kept waiting. It's not that I don't understand why people are late because sometimes they have a good reason but some of them are repeat offenders.

Ok I have to go for ethics class. I'll stop babbling though I still have things to say haha. I'll say them later. Ciao!

revamp

2005-09-06T15:36:00.000+10:00

*~rEvAmP~*

Wheee I've given my blog a facelift. Just thought that this skin was cute. It's done by someone named Clara. Eh Rara Ang, is this skin by you? The handwriting sure looks a lot like yours. Moreover, it's pink just like you are! haha! :) By the way, how come you got blog never tell me?!

Why is it always pink and black.

Anyway, it's back to work now. *sighz*

~tooDles..

Lemon tree

2005-09-04T12:06:00.000+10:00

Lemon tree

I love lemons!! Haha! They serve me one purpose: To clean my kettle!! Yesh...for those of you who have a kettle...Do you know how sometimes after awhile the heating coil gets all deposited with calcium and don't know whatever crap that's in the water? Sometimes the inside of the kettle becomes yellowish as a result of the water marks as well. It looks gross right? All you have to do is get a lemon, cut it in half, squeeze the juice into the kettle and use the lemon to lightly scrub the yellowish parts of the kettle. Fill it with water, leave overnight to stand. Go to sleep and the next day...VOILAH!! You have yourself a clean kettle. Drain the water, rinse it and use some kitchen towels to wipe it and its like new. Try it yourself!! :)

sexist

2005-09-02T23:47:00.000+10:00

Sexist jokes

A sexist yet funny website: http://hainam.nguyen.free.fr/vuichoi.info/flash/Funny_stuffs/Man_and_Woman.swf

I am stressed

2005-09-01T22:52:00.000+10:00

I am stressed

I am stressed. I just received my instructions from my client for my ethics negotiation exercise. I am representing the stupid defendant who bashed up the plaintiff. They have a lot of problems. Great. Just what I didn’t want. Hiahz. Whywhywhy. I have to meet the other lawyer soon. It’s this negotiation exercise we’re supposed to do. Some pretend thing that we have to settle out of court. Hiahz. My partner is some angmoh girl. I hope she’s nice. Hiahz. There are so many things to settle. It’s things like this which make me think twice about doing law. Hiahz. Why can’t the world be at peace. Oh yea. Or else we’ll have no jobs. Bah.

I am stressed. I love Alexander Wang Li Hong. He’s gorgeous. He can sing. He’s talented. He’s everything. *stares dreamily*

I am stressed. I hate my neighbour. The one directly below me *stomps on floor*. She keeps blasting her freaking nonsensical music with no tune. Knock on her door for so long she dun wanna open. B****. If you can’t beat them join them. I have resorted to singing loudly in my room to the tunes of Kelly Clarkson, Sweety and JJ.

I am stressed.

random thoughts

2005-08-30T14:35:00.000+10:00

Random thoughts

It’s really scary when you are, according to Deej, nothing but a tiny speck floating in this huge wide world of knowledge. It’s even scarier when your brain can hardly retain the little knowledge it has, let alone try and cram even more into it. My memory is failing me. It has been this way since young. It’s just gotten worse. Leaving my keys in the fridge, crawling on the floor groping for my specs when they were clipped to the shirt I was wearing all along, thinking of something 1 sec and forgetting it completely the next…Something is seriously wrong. It’s not that I don’t want to remember, I can’t! And it’s frustrating! It doesn’t help that I have so much information to remember.

I was looking at one of my assignment questions and asked a lecturer what it meant and he said, “I’m surprised you have to ask this. Didn’t you go for the lecture and didn’t you do that unit which would have covered this last year?” Thankfully it was via email so he didn’t get a chance to see my astonishingly blank face. I have completely no recollection of it at all. I can’t begin to tell you the numerous times I’ve been stunned by the knowledge that seems to come so naturally to some people yet is so new to me, especially since I should know it. I begin to get scared when I think of going out into the real world and working and not being able to be a good lawyer because I don’t know anything.

What’s worse is that we study so hard for one thing and then forget about it as soon as exams are over.

I admire people (like my aunt) who can engage in almost any type of intellectual discussion/debate and spout out dates of wars and revolutions and news about current or past affairs, or politics all around the world etc. Or classmates who have read so many books over the years that they can discuss every book and even the history of the author anytime of the day. We all have the same brain capacity. How come their brain can retain so much more information than mine can?! This is unfair. I need to read more. Conversely I do dislike people who use their knowledge to belittle others.

I know we are constantly learning about new things…but how do you remember all of it? And don’t say ginko nuts because apparently that’s a myth.

My bad memory has been getting me into trouble lately. I recently had an entire essay erased on my uni’s computer because I forgot to send a copy to my own email. By the time I went back the next day it was gone.

Funnily enough, I can remember many little things in the past, right down to the simplest detail. I can remember exact conversations with exact people in the exact settings from more than 10 years ago. Weird huh. After I pursue my study of dreaming I shall pursue in studying the memory.

It sucks when you have to learn a painful lesson. It really sucks. If only we could turn back time. But we can’t. It also sucks when you can’t do anything to change what happened in the past as much as you’d want/like to. All we have is the future. We have to make do with that. I’ve been making too many stupid mistakes this year. It’s time for change.

YESH!!

2005-08-28T21:36:00.000+10:00

YESH!!!

Yesh 5566 coming in December for concert!!! YAYAYYAYAYAY!!! I'm sho happy!!! Cuz usually when they come, I'm in Australia...Now I will be at home *crosses fingers I won't be overseas on holiday*. YESH FINALLY I GET TO SEE THEM IN CONCERT I'M SO EXCITED!!!

I have something to look forward to. *grins like a bloody idiot* :P

Inside your heaven

2005-08-28T17:33:00.000+10:00

Lord, I want to be inside your heaven

I've been down, now I'm blessed
I felt a revelation coming around
I guess it's right, it's so amazing
Everytime I see you I'm alive
You're all I've got, you lift me up
The sun and the moonlight
All my dreams are in your eyes

When we touch, when we love
The stars line up, the wrong becomes undone
Naturally my soul surrenders
The sun and the moonlight
All my dreams are in your eyes

And I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows you away
I wanna be the one to hold you
Every bit of air you're breathing in
A soothing wind, I wanna be inside your heaven

Great minds think alike

2005-08-27T23:45:00.000+10:00

Great minds think alike

Seems like my friends are feeling the same way as I am. The previous few blogs (the latest 4 I think) Juice has written were starting to scare me, because she put into words what I've been feeling the past few weeks. I just saw Yuan's nick and it applies to me totally (the one about the loser). I understand Peg's frustration and stress. I understand Amy's moodiness. I understand Syl's tiredness. I understand Michelle's sparsticness (wahhahah). It's scary to have so many emotions going through you.

It has been a shitty year. It started off well and then everything went downhill. When will it end? I keep getting the same feeling of wanting to stab myself again and again. A lot of frustration has been running through me lately. A lot of questions without answers. A whole lot of sien-ness (just ask Michelle heheheheh).

Please come to an end soon 2005.

Home

2005-08-25T10:55:00.000+10:00

Home is where my heart is

I miss home!! I miss my family, I miss talking crap with my buddies!!!

I am going home soon. Another 2.5 months and I'll be back.

Have faith. Have trust. Have love. Have God.

Leave everything in God's hands and He will take care of it.

Feels good to be able to be carefree (not the liners ok).

Feels good to have your worries cast aside and just fall and know that God will catch you.

Feels great to have faith, peace, happiness and love in your heart.

DJ

2005-08-23T19:58:00.000+10:00

DJ

Heyz fellow people living in Melbourne. If you all wanna listen to some Asian pop (Canto, Mando, Jap, Korean etc), tune in to 90.7FM. My friend is there DJ-ing from 8 to 10pm every Tuesday. It's a Melbourne Uni station I reckon. You can even sms them at 0427767767 to request for a song. They play pretty recent releases. Just that er...the DJs are amature, so it can get a little annoying but the music is quite ok. I'm going to request my 5566 now. Bye!!

Morning!

2005-08-21T08:35:00.000+10:00

Morning!

I can't believe I'm awake this early. It scares me. Well this is not the first time I woke up at 8am...I usually wake up at 8 when I have 9am classes every Wednesday but this is a first on a Sunday I reckon. I slept at like 2am but had to drag my ass outta bed at 8am because Sylvia told me the night before that I couldn't do it. I proudly knocked on her door at 8:30am and she was like, "You really woke up?! Ok I shall wake up too." Wonder if she went back to sleep after that. It was a personal challenge. Somebody should tell me I can't get all distinctions in my exams. Then again, it'll be too stressful if I were to challenge every defect I have. I'm not perfect and do not strive to be.

*yawn* What should I do now? Too many things. Week 6 is creeping upon us...Scary how time flies. I'd like to clip off its wings so it'll have to walk or buy a car and get stuck in a traffic jam instead. Don't mind me, I'm just rambling. It's too early in the morning to think. Feels good being up and the only one walking around though. Amy, if you're looking for the person who was doing laundry, it was me wahahhaha.

Keep finding myself doing nightly rounds lately. I will go out at 11pm and walk one round around my building just to see who's lights are on and who's aren't. Too free right? Just that sometimes I feel lonely at night and sometimes it's not a very nice feeling. I reckon I'm PMSing.

My neighbours have been leaving their keys in their doors lately. Sylvia did that the night before and then Thilini did it last night. How can people forget to bring their keys in after they unlock their doors?! Must be overly stressed. Either that or overly forgetful.

Monday is looming...I am depressed. *sigh* Life seems pointless at the moment.

something funny yet true my mom sent me

2005-08-18T16:32:00.000+10:00

Something funny yet true my mom sent me

http://upchucky.net/~upchucky/flash-fun/farmer-donkey.swf

Depressed beyond redemption

2005-08-16T23:41:00.000+10:00

Depressed beyond redemption

Sometimes I think that the world is devoid of humanity & compassion.

But when everything & everybody else fails & forsakes you, your family and close friends will always be there to support you.

I'm truly grateful for that.

Sometimes I feel like walking away from everything, but I can't. There are responsibilities and obligations to fulfill.

Amy was right. You don't have a real choice in life. Because you did not choose to be born, you cannot choose to die.

When situations get tough you have to stick through no matter what. Sometimes I think...for what? In the end you still are going to die. Why do we even bother living?

My mom thinks I'm simplistic but everyone is entitled to his/her opinion.

I'm so exhausted. More emotionally than anything else.

Sometimes I wish God could speak to me. We'd talk about anything under the sun. I'd ask him many questions. We'd talk about the latest movies, what's happening up there in heaven and even politics. We could chat all day.

It gets really lonely in my room at night.

My heart aches.

I want to go home, yet I can't run away forever.

Why are we forced to face frequent dilemmas everyday?

I want to talk but I don't know what I want to talk about.

Freak.

Raising funds

2005-08-14T16:13:00.000+10:00

Raising funds & making dreams

As I was in the library today with Syl, I was just thinking of random things...anything other than the book that was in front of me. I hate it when I can't concentrate. My mind just wanders off and thinks about silly things and it takes an eternity to come back and focus. By that time, you would have already forgotten what you read earlier and then have to go back and re-read it. I was major distracted in the library cuz there were many people (on a Sunday, can u imagine? Have you people no lives?! wahhaha I just realised I might be implying that on myself as well) and they were walking in and out of the toilets (and everytime they do that the door makes this loud squealing sound which is so damn annoying) and talking loudly and some couples were PDA-ing (Public Display of Affection). I usually am able to multitask but when it comes to studying I need a quiet environment with no distractions. If I am in a correct environment I can study non-stop for *record time at the moment is 6 hours straight*. But today was just major frustrating. It got worse because what I was reading didn't make sense to me. *hiahz* This weekend just has not been as productive as I would have liked it to be.

Anyway, one of the random things I was thinking about was that people here in Australia sell things to you and then give the money to charity. Like say that day, our hostel manager was selling chocolate to us because Cadbury would then proceed to donate this money from the sale of their chocolate to charity. I think it is a good idea. It's different in Singapore when they just thrust a donation card or bin at you and expect you to just donate. Where's the meaning in that? What are we teaching our kids? Maybe that's why the whole NKF scandal went on. There's no more humanity in this world.

Another random thing I was thinking about was the weird dreams I've been having these past few days. I can't remember everything, but just bits and pieces. My dreams come in non-sequential order and they don't make any sense. They even contain people inside whom I haven't seen in ages. Damn weird. Last night, part of my dream was in Amy's room which doesn't look like Amy's current room but it was her room because she said it was. Anyway, I knocked on the door and walked in and saw Amy talking to this girl whom she introduced to me (Chinese ABC) and I promptly commented that she looked like Jun. Then we chatted for about 5 mins and I asked Amy what happened to her room because it was so clutted with nonsense like new furniture including this big blue chair that looks like the one in the Big Brother Diary Room - crap I must be watching too much Big Brother, and even 2 TVs, side by side. One bigger than the other. There was hardly space to walk. Then the girl said she had to leave and climbed out through the window. :S Yes, so weird right. Got door dun wannna go, she left by the window. As she was leaving, Amy and I heard beautiful music from a piano coming from nearby so we too, climbed out the window to check. Outside the window was a bus stop and a few people there playing on musical instruments so we went out to see what was going on. Amy sorta disappeared because I never saw her from then on but when I turned around I saw Shu Yuan. This is the damn weird part. I was talking to Shu Yuan when suddenly her friends, Melissa Yang and Melissa Chou, came along and upset the keyboard that the pianist was playing on, kicked it, smashed it and laughed. Then I remember telling Shu Yuan, "Eh, how come you still can be friends will these kind of people." (no offence, I can't help what I dream). Then I think the dream ended. So weird right?! I'm so curious with what this whole dream thingymajiggy means. Maybe I will do research into it after my current degrees wahhaha.

Then after Syl and I left the library, the fire alarm rang in the campus centre and we saw 2 fire engines speed across the road. Wonder if there was a real fire? Most probably not. Nothing exciting ever happens in uni wahhaha. Especially not on a Sunday. Most likely false alarm.

Alritey mates. That's all for today. Have to get back and try to study again in my room. Thank God Michelle will be around for me to talk nonsense to online again soon. I'm going crazy talking to myself. And Sylvia. Wahhahh!!! Just kidding bah...Have a good week and mooncake festival...whenever it comes!!

red rooster

2005-08-13T21:17:00.000+10:00

Red Rooster...safe for consumption?

http://matt.carter.name/blog/2004_12_01_serenitynow_archive.html

Next time you buy something from Red Rooster, or anything from outside, check properly. You never know what you may find.

Who blocked you?

2005-08-13T16:52:00.000+10:00

Who blocked you?

http://msncheck.41m.com - free way to check who blocked and deleted you on msn

Hmm...I expect many people have already found out about this. Eat your words Damien...somemore come and trick me...say that there is no such thing somemore and even laughed at me. HAH! There IS such a thing. Anyway, I reckon ignorance is bliss. Even if you find out who blocked you...so what? What are you going to do? You can only feel miserable (if that person means something to you). So if you are a meanie better not check wahahhaha.

Feeling sien all week cuz there's nothing to do but study. *sigh* Been going out for meals recently since Amy got her new car *cheers babe*. Life is good at the moment but when it comes to week 7 everybody will be panicking. Oh oops...forgot that some people already have assignments due in earlier *snigger*.

There was snow in Melbourne a few days ago. Crazy...Spring is here and it became colder than winter. Xiao weather. Today is hot, then Monday will be rain with wind and cold again. Insane. What are we doing to our planet. Just saw the news that a boy got killed whilst skiing where we were skiing a few weeks ago (Falls Creek). He skiied into a tree and died. *ugh* How terrible. Thank God nothing happened to us. How dangerous.

Ooh they have good tv tonight. Mulan and Witches. I've been dying to see Witches ever since I read the Roald Dahl book. I wonder if it's good. By Rowan Atkinson. COolios. Love Roald Dahl. Charlie and the Chocolate Factory coming out here soon. Heard that tix are all sold out in Singapore.

Till next time, have a good weekend!

*~That's just me~*

bye

eggs

blogging cuz of michy

quiz

guys are freaking jerks

TGWO

I trust you

WTF

songs

never

torn

this is my life

untitled

Commonwealth games

wow

fate

one of those nights again

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

GAO MENG AH!!!

stupid, stupid, stupid

back in melb

courtesy

phew

Sigh

uncertainty

SO...FREAKING...TIRED

Absolutely divine

TGITW

Monday is looming

chinked out

can't sleep

yay

idiots

bday

21st

Japan pictures

Sorry!!

B4 21 plan complete

Harry Potty 4

buffet

Hash

daily scoop

jap name

i miss melbourne

Freaking hot

shit happens

??

Sweet relief of freedom

weird

dear God

Exams

ramblings

leave me alone

she writes well

Blood donors

oct

tag

nanana

funny

Home

argh

Interview with God

bitches

to...

Desperate houseflies part II

handbells

dare u to move

God gave me my rainbow

save my feet

Dead tired

Kids

rottin away

Frog prince

Amazing Lord

hols r here

go to hell

rainbow

collide

Mooncake fest

~That's just me~