It's through the negative, that we can see the positive.
It's through the mean, that we can see the kind.
It's through the darkness, that we can see the light.
It's through life, that we see God and his mighty plan for us.
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Monday, March 20, 2006
4:33 AM
This is life…my life
Here I am again late at night. It’s weird because recently when I start trying to study I sorta drift away into dreamland and start feeling all groggy and sleepy. Then I get ready for bed and when I finally lay down to sleep, I can’t and get insomnia. The power of books eh?
We had a party at our hostel last night. It was a “get-to-know-your-neighbour” party for all the tenants at our hostel as well as the hostel opposite ours, since it’s owned by the same person. It was kindda…weird. Let’s just say I met all sorts of people. Some nice ones, some funny ones, some just REALLY weird. I can’t even begin to tell you HOW weird. And then my friends and I stayed up till 3am just talking about weird pple we met.
I was stressed about work a few days ago. But I’ve sorted it all out. And…I believe that we can’t control what happens to us. As in, we can’t control fate, we can’t control destiny. We only have control over certain things in life. One of it is my studies. I can’t control how well I do. I say that because sometimes you can try really hard but in the end get crappy marks still. All I can do is do my best and let God take care of the rest. And as long as I can surely say that, yes, I have done my best, then whatever the outcome is, is in the hands of Him. And that will be my destiny. I realise that I always spend time worrying about situations that I have no control over. Which is a waste of time. It’s just like in soccer where whether your team gets to play in the final depends on whether a certain team loses or wins. Then you hope that the other team loses. But in the first place, you have to take care of your own side before you can worry about others. So I am now going to focus on the things that I have control over.
The world is a small place. TOO small. I just realised that a friend of mine, whom I got to know whilst working at A&G, is my mom’s friend’s daughter’s boyfriend. Really weird. And it just took 1 word (“dog”) on MSN for us to discover this. Turns out that his girlfriend was the owner of Hash, my dog. We’re both still in shock. The conversation went something like this:
Him: What I really need is a 2 hour run now
Me: Why don’t you go run around your house?
Him: I can’t because I need a nice straight long route
Me: I have a canal that’s long and straight behind my place. I bring my dog for a walk there sometimes
Him: What breed is your dog? My girlfriend has a dog
Me: It’s a mixed breed. The mother got raped by this unknown dog, but she’s a Siberian husky
Him: Oh, my girlfriend’s dog too. WAIT. You just got the puppy?
Me: Yah, why
*sudden realisation by both of us*
Him: MY GIRLFRIEND OWNS THE MUM
Me: YOU’RE KIDDING
Him: NO I’M NOT
Me: OH MY GAWD. Don’t tell me SHE’S…
Him: YES SHE IS
Me: I KNOW HER. Guess what?
Him: WHAT?
Me: My mom and her mom used to be colleagues
Him: THIS IS INCREDIBLE! IT’S OUT OF THIS WORLD!!! I AM STILL TRYING TO BREATHE…
So we had this long 2 hour conversation after that about my dog and its siblings, because he saw all 3 of them before 2 of them were given away. PHEW. It’s God’s will I tell you. And there I was minutes earlier, saying that he and his girlfriend are so sweet because they’ve been together for so long and he’s totally into her…and I happen to now KNOW her. And when I look back on it now, it actually was a very unrelated topic that led to all this. Amazing.
I am now running on caffeine. It’s 4:30am and I still haven’t finished my reading. I’m not tired but my eyes are really painful from staring at the computer for 3.5 hours non-stop. I understand that there’s a lot of reading to do but this is getting ridiculous. Week after week it piles up and no matter how long I spend reading, I never seem to be able to clear it. And now assignments are due in soon too??? I wonder how I’m going to cope this semester. I pray for strength. A LOT OF STRENGTH.
