It's through the negative, that we can see the positive.
It's through the mean, that we can see the kind.
It's through the darkness, that we can see the light.
It's through life, that we see God and his mighty plan for us.
*~Juice
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Tuesday, March 28, 2006
2:23 PM
I trust U
Was having a late night chat with Juice last night (or should I say this morning). I was up late because I just got my laptop back and was busy downloading all the stuff into it. A brand new start. Wow. All this while I was hoping for a new start to life. Until I realised (after my computer went bust), how much I wanted to hold on to the old stuff. It was hard letting it go, but not impossible. And ever since I came here (to Melb), I have since learnt to let things go. It has been a traumatic experience for me (life lessons repeated over and over again) but with each bad experience I learn something new. I also learn slowly, to let go of things.
I remember someone once said that to learn how to let go is the hardest, yet most important thing in life. I think God is teaching me that. I had a conversation (one-sided, as usual) with Him one day and He knows that my main weakness (amongst many others) is that there are some things in life which I have a very hard time forgetting and letting go. There are people in life (like my family of course) that I wish and hope and pray that I will never have to part with. But nothing is forever, except God.
But I guess when you let go, you learn to live, to look forward, stop harping on the past and become at peace with yourself. That's how I feel now. At peace with myself. And learning how to trust God to take care of me is the main reason for this peace. Because no matter what happens you know that He will take care of you. After some of the shit I've had to go through recently, there is very little that's going to bring me down now (I hope *lol*). It makes you a stronger person. By letting go, you learn to forgive others, but most importantly, you learn to forgive YOURSELF. That's the hardest bit.
Amy always tells me not to be so hard on myself. Recently I feel I have to say the same about her as well.
Anyway, I was chatting to Juice and she always has this knack of explaining things in the simplest ways which make the most sense. It's very comforting to talk to her because she always knows what to say. It may not be the "right" thing to say, but she knows the appropriate things to say, and she won't lie to you. Like maybe I fell out with a friend and the "right" thing to say would be "oh don't worry, the other friend is so mean blahblah it's not your fault...". But the appropriate thing to say may be "I think you should talk to her about it. You were not exactly blameless as well." I appreciate the honesty. I think being able to talk to people is a gift. Juice you should be a counsellor! Thanks for the talk last night!
On a lighter note, I got my placement! They offered me a placement next semester for 5 weeks for my Family law unit. I'm supposed to go to this law firm (on-campus) every Friday morning (for a mth) for 4 hours and basically do an internship. Then the 5th week I get to go to the Dandenong Family Court. So exciting! And it's all part of my course! Of couse last time I would have just taken the easy way out and opted to do the 100% exam paper. But not anymore.
